If there's one person on the planet
most resistant to change, it'd be me.
I hate change. With a vengeance.
Plus, it doesn't help that I'm a huge control freak. Who gets turned on by structure. And organisation. And colourful calendar notes. Upon notes, upon notes. And while I think I adapt to social changes moderately well, I really suck when it comes to changes that concern the other aspects of my life.
Like when I first shifted up to Penang. I was so broken and upset about having to up, move, and leave KL that... I spent my first few hours back at home just talking through the pain over the phone with my KL friends, crying and blowing snot while I proceeded to clear the mess that was my pre-college room. @_@
And just like when it came to quitting my job at MCKL. The first time I tendered my resignation, I burst into tears. Right in the ECD's room. Before Big Man Boss of Words himself! -_-''' Seems funny now in hindsight but at the time, all I felt was the pain of losing what I already had and the gripping fear of would have been a huge change in my career path.
And these two examples? They're just the tip of the iceberg. But I shan't go on. The bottom line is this: I hate change. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. And I don't take to it kindly. Sigh. Unfortunately, for a change-resistant person, I think I've been through more changes in the recent year than more, if not most, people.
Too bad it looks like
there's more to come. T_T
I've said it before, I'll say it again:
I want stability. I need stability.
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