Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Dreaming With A Broken Heart

Artist: John Mayer Song
Title: Dreaming With A Broken Heart

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll out of bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe

Wondering was she really here
Is she standing in my room?
No, she's not
'Cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye

Wondering, could you stay, my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No, she can't
'Cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone

Now do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my, roses in my hands?
Would you get them if I did?
No, you won't
'Cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part

It's been 3 days and 16 hours since you left us. 88 hours since we hugged and shared a teary goodbye at KLIA 2. And yet, I continue to find myself feeling heavy-hearted and blue because of the lack of you.

I instinctively want to tell you stories of all the funny and silly things JJ does so we can laugh about it together. But you're not around to listen to me to. I come home expecting to hear funny stories, too. But of course, I hear none. And up till now, JJ and I still find ourselves accidentally calling out your name when we need help.

Three nights ago, you got in touch and the kids shared hellos, goodnights and I-miss-yous with you over WhatsApp. Two evenings ago, JJ asked to send you video a video telling you about the flowers he picks from school. Just yesterday, JZ said, "I miss her a lot, Mommy. I want Aunty Jas to come back."

Sigh. It's really isn't easy moving on after two years of togetherness. Especially not when space and time (i.e. every waking moment) are shared. But all good things must come to an end. And I guess what they say is true – this really feels like a break-up. Mutual, but no less painful and heartbreaking.

Goodbye, Dear Jas.

Take care over there in Davao.
And may we meet again
someday, somewhere, somehow.

Pam Song

Thursday, May 18, 2017

Paw Patrol, Paw Patrol, Be There On The Double!

JJ knows the way home. So when I made a detour today to put gas in my empty tank, this conversation ensued:

JJ: Mommy where are we going?

Pam Song: We're going to pump petrol.

JJ: *eyes light up* We going to see PAW PATROL???

LOL. Urm, no.

Tuesday, May 09, 2017

Blessed To Be A Blessing

I've been filling my home with framed quotes and verses to up the positive around here. Last week, I decided to prepare one for an acquaintance, too. (Her mom isn't doing to well and was in ICU.) We're not particularly close but I felt led to do so and so I did. Passed the framed bible verse through a mutual friend and today, my WhatsApp message ding-dinged with this heartwarming exchange. 

"Whoever brings blessing will be enriched,
and one who waters will himself be watered."

– Proverbs 11:25 –

Monday, May 01, 2017

JZ & JJ's Favourite Part Of A Day Out

Was very happening today. Brought the kids to a kiddie gym with some friends in the morning, had a long lunch with them at a Chinese restaurant, then zoomed off to Starling Mall on our own thereafter to catch an afternoon movie. Yup, that's 2 malls in 1 day. #achievementunlocked

We went all the way there cos we wanted to try MBO's new Kecil Hall. They were screening Smurfs  – something the kids haven't watched before – but unfortunately, tickets were fully sold out. We ended up watching The Boss Baby instead. I loved it! We've actually Popcorn Time-d it for the kids a couple of times over lunches at home but I've never actually sat through the whole movie myself.

The Husband came to join us for dinner at Uptown after the movie. (He did his guy thing today and went looking for an electric guitar to buy with a new friend from church.) It felt like we hadn't seen him all weekend since he started getting more involved in church. This was his attempt to connect with the kids over dinner.

The Husband: *asks JZ* Did you have fun?

JZ: Yes. 

The Husband: What was your favourite part of the day? 

JZ: *thinking hard 🤔* The movie. 

The Husband: *turns to JJ* JJ, what was your favourite part of the day? 

JJ: *says distractedly while playing on the phone* Eating. 


Say wha-??

We thought we heard him wrongly so
The Husband asked again. And this time... 

JJ: *loudly plus some irritation* EATING!


Hahahahaha. This boy cracks me up!

God Hears The Simple Stories Children Tell

Our cell host, Adrian, always prays before he finds parking. And I promise you, he always, always gets good parking because of it! Like at-the-doorstep kind of parking, okay. No kidding!

So while at the recently-opened Starling Mall last night, I asked JZ to pray for God to give us a good parking space. We needed all the supernatural help we could get considering it was a Sunday night on Labour Day weekend. 

Here's how it went...

JZ: Dear Jesus... Please give us a parking space... And let us park the car.

The Husband: And then? What must you say after that? 

JZ: *unsure* Thank you? 🤔

Pam Song: Yes... And then? How do you end the prayer? 

JZ: *without hesitation* The end. 


ROFL!!! I almost died and went to heaven laughing.
Hahahaha. Kids, kids... I hope God enjoyed that story. 

Either way, He definitely heard this child's earnest and simple prayer cos we DID get a good parking space just 3 lots away from the escalator up! God is good!