Thursday, June 08, 2017

Bye Bye!

Without Jas around, both kids now follow me on my pick-up and drop-off runs. JJ goes with me to pick up JZ from school, then JZ comes with me to drop off JJ at school. JJ's always liked JZ's big-boy school and has always considered JZ's friends his own. Today, this happened that totally made me laugh till I cried:

Millie: *shouts and waves from afar* BYE, JZ!! 

JZ: *turns, shouts, and waves back* BYE, MILLIE!!

JJ: *stops, turns, shouts, and waves as well* BYE, SMELLY!!!

πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ ROFL!!! That copycat!
And he was dead serious, too, by the way!

Friday, June 02, 2017

Country Vs. Crunchy

The Husband and I escaped for a short #holidate to Singapore a month or two ago and visited Universal Studios Singapore at the time. We had our chance to sit on all the killer adult rides then and oo-ed and ahh-ed at all the kiddie rides we thought the kids would love. So this weekend, we decided to bring JZ and JJ for a weekend of fun in Singapore.

While driving into the city,
this conversation took place: 

Pam Song: We're in Singapore now, JZ! Look around!! 

JZ: Wah! Are you in a different crunchy?? 

Pam Song: *laughs and teases* LOL!!! Crunchy?? Did we just enter a cookie?? 


Haha. I love it when kids mess up
their words in ridiculous ways.

Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Dreaming With A Broken Heart

Artist: John Mayer Song
Title: Dreaming With A Broken Heart

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll out of bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe

Wondering was she really here
Is she standing in my room?
No, she's not
'Cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye

Wondering, could you stay, my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No, she can't
'Cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone

Now do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my, roses in my hands?
Would you get them if I did?
No, you won't
'Cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part

It's been 3 days and 16 hours since you left us. 88 hours since we hugged and shared a teary goodbye at KLIA 2. And yet, I continue to find myself feeling heavy-hearted and blue because of the lack of you.

I instinctively want to tell you stories of all the funny and silly things JJ does so we can laugh about it together. But you're not around to listen to me to. I come home expecting to hear funny stories, too. But of course, I hear none. And up till now, JJ and I still find ourselves accidentally calling out your name when we need help.

Three nights ago, you got in touch and the kids shared hellos, goodnights and I-miss-yous with you over WhatsApp. Two evenings ago, JJ asked to send you video a video telling you about the flowers he picks from school. Just yesterday, JZ said, "I miss her a lot, Mommy. I want Aunty Jas to come back."

Sigh. It's really isn't easy moving on after two years of togetherness. Especially not when space and time (i.e. every waking moment) are shared. But all good things must come to an end. And I guess what they say is true – this really feels like a break-up. Mutual, but no less painful and heartbreaking.

Goodbye, Dear Jas.

Take care over there in Davao.
And may we meet again
someday, somewhere, somehow.

Pam Song

Thursday, May 18, 2017

Paw Patrol, Paw Patrol, Be There On The Double!

JJ knows the way home. So when I made a detour today to put gas in my empty tank, this conversation ensued:

JJ: Mommy where are we going?

Pam Song: We're going to pump petrol.

JJ: *eyes light up* We going to see PAW PATROL???

LOL. Urm, no.

Tuesday, May 09, 2017

Blessed To Be A Blessing

I've been filling my home with framed quotes and verses to up the positive around here. Last week, I decided to prepare one for an acquaintance, too. (Her mom isn't doing to well and was in ICU.) We're not particularly close but I felt led to do so and so I did. Passed the framed bible verse through a mutual friend and today, my WhatsApp message ding-dinged with this heartwarming exchange. 

"Whoever brings blessing will be enriched,
and one who waters will himself be watered."

– Proverbs 11:25 –

Monday, May 01, 2017

JZ & JJ's Favourite Part Of A Day Out

Was very happening today. Brought the kids to a kiddie gym with some friends in the morning, had a long lunch with them at a Chinese restaurant, then zoomed off to Starling Mall on our own thereafter to catch an afternoon movie. Yup, that's 2 malls in 1 day. #achievementunlocked

We went all the way there cos we wanted to try MBO's new Kecil Hall. They were screening Smurfs  – something the kids haven't watched before – but unfortunately, tickets were fully sold out. We ended up watching The Boss Baby instead. I loved it! We've actually Popcorn Time-d it for the kids a couple of times over lunches at home but I've never actually sat through the whole movie myself.

The Husband came to join us for dinner at Uptown after the movie. (He did his guy thing today and went looking for an electric guitar to buy with a new friend from church.) It felt like we hadn't seen him all weekend since he started getting more involved in church. This was his attempt to connect with the kids over dinner.

The Husband: *asks JZ* Did you have fun?

JZ: Yes. 

The Husband: What was your favourite part of the day? 

JZ: *thinking hard πŸ€”* The movie. 

The Husband: *turns to JJ* JJ, what was your favourite part of the day? 

JJ: *says distractedly while playing on the phone* Eating. 


Say wha-??

We thought we heard him wrongly so
The Husband asked again. And this time... 

JJ: *loudly plus some irritation* EATING!


Hahahahaha. This boy cracks me up!

God Hears The Simple Stories Children Tell

Our cell host, Adrian, always prays before he finds parking. And I promise you, he always, always gets good parking because of it! Like at-the-doorstep kind of parking, okay. No kidding!

So while at the recently-opened Starling Mall last night, I asked JZ to pray for God to give us a good parking space. We needed all the supernatural help we could get considering it was a Sunday night on Labour Day weekend. 

Here's how it went...

JZ: Dear Jesus... Please give us a parking space... And let us park the car.

The Husband: And then? What must you say after that? 

JZ: *unsure* Thank you? πŸ€”

Pam Song: Yes... And then? How do you end the prayer? 

JZ: *without hesitation* The end. 


ROFL!!! I almost died and went to heaven laughing.
Hahahaha. Kids, kids... I hope God enjoyed that story. 

Either way, He definitely heard this child's earnest and simple prayer cos we DID get a good parking space just 3 lots away from the escalator up! God is good! 

Sunday, April 30, 2017

Making A House A Home

The Husband and I have been living in KL for about 5.5 years now. (I moved back down to be with him a few months after we got married.) In these 5.5 years, I've moved a total of 4 times. Yes, FOUR. FREAKING. TIMES. πŸ˜… Crazy, right?

The first move was from Penang down to Mont Kiara in KL. 4 months later, we moved to Subang cos ugh, don't get me started on the MK jam. We lived in Subang for about 2 years then moved to our current condo. A year later, we moved down the hall to another unit in the same block of the same condo. LOL. #gila

Anyway, I've kinda unintentionally resisted setting up home in these houses cos... well, we've somewhat always talked about moving back to Penang someday. So, at the back of my mind, I thought – why put in any effort or throw in any money into a place we won't stay very long at? Doesn't make sense, right? At least that was what I thought at the time.

But now, I'm beginning to think differently. 

Mainly cos my dream of moving into our own home back in Penang is very quickly becoming a reality that is always just beyond my reach. πŸ™ That one dream that still eludes me and escapes my grasp each and every time. πŸ˜” It always seems like we're making plans to head back this year. But "this year" always turns into "next year" and then "not now" and "see how". 😒 Still, it's a dream that I hope never becomes "never". πŸ™

So yes, it looks like we're here to stay for now.

It's a little of a "yay" and a little of a "nay" for me, to be honest. I've always loved being in KL because my church, my friends and my work are all here. But there's just something about having your own home, decorated with your own stuff, in your own style, with everything placed, set and done your way, that's just so deeply fulfilling and satisfying for a woman. Plus, the feeling of permanence that comes with living in your own home just makes a big difference.

Thing is, although the store room in our Penang house is filled with boxes upon boxes of MYSALE steals, Daiso buys, random decorative stuff and other kitchen knick-knacks from everywhere possible by now πŸ“¦πŸ“¦πŸ“¦ – household hoarding is my secret joy and financial Achilles heel πŸ˜… – I've not unpacked any of it. Why? Cos I've always wanted to unpack it all in my own space. Very idealistic, I know. So I've waited. And waited. And waited. ⏱

Until now. Cos... screw it lah!
I'm tired of waiting to be happy. 😀

Some of my latest buys are still in KL so I've decided to just unpack and use them NOW rather than later. It's time to make this house our home. #determined

Side table and geometric tea light holder
from MYSALE. Potted plant from SSF.

Kids organising bins from MYSALE.

I really love how easy and convenient preparing the kids for school is now that I've started using these bins. JZ's stuff are on the left half and JJ's stuff are on the right half. This includes school bags, library books, uniforms, PE attires, socks, underwear and diapers – everything in one place without me having to run in and out of the bedroom for anything before rushing them off to school. A winning buy that's totally worth the money! #score

Serving tray, wooden brain teasers and wooden tissue box
from MYSALE. Table from IKEA.

Some brain teasers in the middle of the hall to entertain the guests we're looking forward to having over now that we've integrated ourselves into our cell at SIBKL. (We ended up hosting hangout night with some cellmates 2 weeks ago.) God has really been good to us. He brought us to the perfect cell with all right dynamics, the same maturity, and the perfect psychographics for us to thrive and feel comfortable in. Yay! 

Anyhoo, I digress. 

Back to the subject at hand.

Tray table from MYSALE.

 Glass vases from MYSALE. Photo frames from IKEA.
Lavender potted plant from SSF.

This is a difficult wall to address cos it's right next to my bedroom door. Put anything too big there and it blocks the entryway. Anything too small, and it seems odd and out of place. I can't decide if I want this setup here permanently cos it's a little low but, it'll do for now. I think the pictures help breathe a little more life into this little corner of the house, though. I'm kinda glad I decided to remove them from our bedroom bookshelf and put them out here. 

Table and colourful kiddie bookshelf from MYSALE.
Table lamp from IKEA. Diffuser from Young Living.

Put these in one corner of our bedroom. (That wall was left empty before and the diffuser was diffusing from the floor.) They help make the room feel more organised, personalised and lived-in. I plan to get a 2-seater sofa and/or a work table to effectively use up the rest of the space in front of our bed. Hopefully I find something nice and cheap! Haha. SSF, maybe?

Aiya, there's more ID and sprucing up to be done once I get my stuff from Penang back to KL la. I can't wait to get to it! πŸ€— But bringing all back down is going to take a whole lotta trips up and down the North-South. Not an easy feat considering we always travel back to Penang with the kids and a helper so there's hardly any empty space in the car to begin with.

Also, filling in the little gaps around the house will require spending more money at SSF, MYSALE, IKEA and Daiso. πŸ’ΈπŸ’ΈπŸ’Έ (These seem to be the only places I shop at, eh?) You'd be surprised how much the miscellaneous things can cost! So, Imma really have to pace myself on that one lest I go broke trying. 😁

Oh well, at least I'll be a happy woman
eating white bread and plain porridge
in my very pretty home. 😝