Wednesday, August 18, 2021

I Smell Weird

I was all stuffed into my bed for a cosy, cuddly, snuggly bedtime with the boys. JJ had his head propped on my right shoulder while JZ had his arms and legs wrapped around my left hand. Suddenly, JZ said...

JZ: *sniffs my shoulder* Mommy, you smell weird. 

Pam Song: *incredulously* WHAT?! No way! 

JZ: Yes! It’s weird

JJ: *protectively* No!! Mommy doesn’t smell weird!! Mommy always smells nice! Right, Mommy?

Pam Song: Of course! πŸ˜€

JZ: *insisting* Nooooo... It’s weird!!

Pam Song: Fine! Then I smell like what??

JZ: Like... like... honey and flowers. πŸ―πŸ’ 

Pam Song: πŸ˜³

So, dear future daughter-in-law, if ever my son tells you that you smell weird, it's okay. Don't take his comment as criticism. You probably just smell like honey and flowers. πŸ˜…πŸ˜†

Empty Nest

Not a sound, not a boom, 
Deathly silent like a tomb. 
Home for four, but now homes two, 
Quiet house, empty rooms.

Tuesday, August 10, 2021

My Husband Is Better Than Yours

Some husbands shower their wives
with flowers as an expression of their love. πŸ’

My husband changed the game. 🀩

Oh yeah... #myhusbandisbetterthanyours

p/s: This is not an ad. πŸ˜‚

Sunday, August 08, 2021

Had To Stop For A Picture...

...because some afternoons are just
more breathtaking than others. 🀩

#seasunsky #islandlife #PenangIsland πŸ️

Tuesday, July 27, 2021

Oh Where Oh Where Have My Babies Gone?

#throwback to #29December2014

Oh, how I miss those cuddly baby days. πŸ‘ΆπŸ»πŸ€±πŸ»

Sunday, July 25, 2021

The Cook & The Cleaner

Woke up with the world on my shoulders.

Kids are on their last pair of sports clothes. 😱 (That has officially been their lockdown uniform so Mommy doesn't have to do so much ironing. πŸ€ͺ) They've also just left for tennis class. That means they would have left my home well-fed... and will return home as hot, tired, hungry monsters. πŸ˜ˆ

That means I have about an hour and a half to
get the laundry done and put lunch on the table.

Top: First load of sportswear is already spinning in the dryer.
Bottom: Second load of whites are currently in the wash.

Third load of multi-coloured and darks are waiting to go in.

Two more loads of lights and darks to be run on gentle setting.

That's FIVE loads of laundry to tackle in one morning.
Thank goodness it's not towels and bedsheets day, too. πŸ˜…

Oh, but laundry isn't all there is to do, right?

A sink full of dirty dishes.

A semi-frozen, unwashed, uncut, uncooked lunch.

So much to do, so little time. But somehow, it's all possible when I have the whole house to myself and my EarPods in place. Yes, housekeeping is relaxing, laundry is therapeutic and cooking is enjoyable... when there's no one else at home but me. πŸ˜… #truestory #nomommymommymommy #gameon

Saturday, July 24, 2021

Lessons From A Lovely Night

Without the dark, we'd never see the brilliance of the moon.

In the same way, without trials and challenges in life,
one would never know the strength one possesses. πŸ˜πŸ˜‰πŸ’ͺ

Friday, July 23, 2021

Build The Bridge To Bridge The Gap

"God doesn’t like our pain either, but His plan for us is better than our just escaping it. 

He wants to heal us and redeem us, providing each of His children with an active hope and eternal comfort. But we can’t always see the ways He’s doing this, and many times we may wonder if we’re still on His agenda at all. This is why we need strength and courage too — to bridge the gap between hurt and healed. 

God tells us to be strong and courageous because He knows we will want to listen to the pain rather than to His promises. He knows we will want to find our own solutions and escape routes, and He understands we will struggle to trust His plan is good when it feels anything but. Our fear is not a surprise to Him, which means He has anticipated it and prepared for it with the gift of His Word. Because of these promises, we can be brave."

– Kaitlin Wernet, from The Book of Comforts
by Caleb Faires, Rebecca Faires,
Kaitlin Wernet, Cymone Wilder.


We need strength and courage to bridge the gap
between hurt and healed, said she.

WOW. And indeed we do.
Well said and beautifully worded.

For the journey is long, and hard, and tough, and tiring. Sometimes, painful; often, lonely. So yes, having walked a short mile on this path the Lord has set me on, I have to agree – strength and courage is the name of this wretched game. 

I think I took my first diagnosis moderately well.

I accepted my fate, trusted my doctors, did everything that was prescribed, and adapted to life as a survivor. I praised God throughout and was pretty calm about the whole situation, believing that what we were doing would be enough to keep Cancer at bay and that this was a one-off occurrence that we could put behind us after I was done with treatment. But then...

During a scheduled 6-month CT the moment I was done
with my year-long treatment plan, they found a new lump.

our worst fears were confirmed and had come back to haunt us

During this time, I went through a handful of bluesy days. I was downcast and depressed. To sum it up in a word, what I felt then was hopelessness. But God brought our SIBKL cell, Faithful Friends, into my life for such a time as this. They arranged a Spirit-led Zoom call that shook me up, lifted my spirit, and brought me back from the horrible depths of hopeless desolation. 

It was after that that my perspective shifted.

I now believe that the fight with Cancer is ultimately an endurance game. A test of mental, physical and spiritual stamina. An Ironman multi-athlon of sorts, which puts your body, mind and spirit through the ultimate test of grit, tenacity, determination, long-suffering, patience, and perseverance. 

How many times can you get back up again when avalanche after avalanche of bad news hits often and hard, when wave after wave of physical suffering and pain tries its best to knock you down, and when tsunami after tsunami of medical bills attempt to financially drown you? How many times can you just. keep. on. going? How many times must you keep on going?

The answer is – Every. Single. Time.

It's not enough to be positive, joyful and faithful the first time around. You have to get into the right mindset every single day. BUT... how do you slay negativity, find joy and keep the faith in the thick of tribulation? When faced with sickness, pain, suffering, and possibly even death? 

Well, it's not easy, I'll tell you that.
But it's not impossible.

How can I be so sure? 

Because God is good. And He is faithful. And His Word tells us that He will not let us be tempted beyond what we can bear. AND EVEN WHEN – not if but WHEN, says the Bible – we are tempted at some point or another – to give up, to give in and to just surrender and quit (it's true, I've been there πŸ˜”) – the beauty of it all is that He will also provide a way out so that we can endure it (1 Corinthians 10:13).

Your job, as you wait upon the Lord,
is to be strong and courageous (1 Chronicles 22:13),
not lose heart, and make this season of renewal and purification
for the sake of eternity really count (2 Corinthians 4:16-17).

However tough, trying, demotivating and difficult your situation right now, remember: Your suffering is never in vain. God is using your pain for a purpose – to mould you, shape you and refine you. To get you from where you are, to where you should be. More importantly, to bridge the gap between who you are and who you should be. 

Whatever you're going through, the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords has deemed you able. And if He thinks you can do it, cummon! You. can. do. it! Fight the good fight and finish the race having kept the faith (2 Timothy 4:7)! The best part of it all is that you don't have to do it alone. For His promise is that He will never leave you nor forsake you. 

God gives His toughest battles to
His strongest soldiers. And don't worry.
He never abandons them on the battleground, ok.

So, friend... as you brave this fight with cancer, remember that you. are. not. alone. He is with you and for you, so nothing can be against you (Romans 8:31). And if you're a survivor and need a friend to pray and journey along with you, write me.