Are We On Our Way To 'The End'?

It's only been a little over 10 months, you and me. And if you ask me, I think we did things right at the beginning. I do. Right from the start. I asked, you looked my way, you opened the doors, and I said, "Yes." And that was it. That was the start.


We spent a LOT of time together. All the while with me trying to figure you out, and you trying to get me to understand you better. We enjoyed each other's company somewhat. And what we shared was enough to sustain us. It was enough to keep us happy, and we were happy enough with the way things were going.


Of course, like anybody else, we had our rough patches at times, too. Once or twice – and maybe even more times than that – Frustration became the name of the game. But at the end of the day, we always knew we'd make up, put the past behind us and move on.


But things have started becoming increasingly delicate between us. Our relationship? It's frail and fragile. The spark we once shared? It's gone – no longer there. The passion? It totally sizzled out. When? I don't know. And of late, I've begun to question, "Was it even really there in the first place?"


I feel like I've been walking for miles and miles and miles... on eggshells. Worse, the road ahead just seems to get increasingly intolerable. It's all looking much too unbearable. Totally unmanageable. And right now, I really think that we're in way over our heads.

Everything we're going through, together, they're all tiring me out. Draining me, killing my spirit and causing me much stress, pain and unhappiness. I. Am. Tired. Very much so. And nothing you do is helping.

I don't know if all I'm looking for right now is a time-out. And I don't know if what I really want is a solid 'Goodbye'. I'm not sure about anything anymore. All I know is that at this moment in time, I want to run and not look back. Leave and never return. Turn the lock and throw away the key. And if you were to ask me "Is this The End?" I'd say, "I don't know." Because I don't. All I know is that right now, everything's more than I can take. So much more than I can take.