Sunday, July 27, 2008

Embrace It

Okay. I relent. I'll give in. Just this once. And I'll leave the rest of it to The Weatherman. Just like you told me to.




"Embrace it. Then only let it go. It's learning
how to feel and then learning how to deal."

– Author Undisclosed

41 comments :

Hwei Ming said...

IMo?

>.<

Haha...don't cry la..it'll ruin your make up..

*give tissue and give foundation cream*

Happpy?? Can??

=P

Anonymous said...

Haiyo...what happened?! Release all you need and come back with composure....there is always a better day for tommorow. *sending the cutest baby on earth to hug her*

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Choo Hwei Ming
– Yeah. Emo.

And I don't want to pretend to be happy anymore. I don't want to smile when I don't feel it coming out from the inside. I don't want to laugh and hear it in my ears and not feel it in my gut.

Not anymore.

Thanks for trying, though. =)

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Adrian Lim
– I want a baby now. To chase away my storm clouds and to bring back the sunshine. But I also know that I can't deal with one right now. Not when I'm feeling this way. Nobody deserves anyone who feels this way, really. Especially not an innocent child.

Hwei Ming said...

Haha.. I've tried my best!!

I'll keep trying..
You just keep waiting k.. hahahahaha...

sound so wrong..

anyway, come satay celup k..

I think i'll need to hire a clowns now.. :p

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Choo Hwei Ming
– Yeah, I think you do. But... you'll totally freak Kelz out. =p

Deal. Satay celup it is.

kellster said...

girl,
anything just release out with songs or lyrics that are related.
thats how i release out and feel better though at times it does not change things.

but at least it beats better than keeping it sealed.
anything please do give me a ring to talk.
love you babe. you take good care of urself kay?
and yes,
HWEI MING WILL FREAK ME OUT WITH THAT CLOWN IDEA.
:)

XXX

AA said...

eh, your ear ok dy ar? or was it the other ear...?

anyway, crying is not so bad... why dun cry? if sad, cry la... cry khao khao...

it's our bloody right...

choco said...

*huggles*

There's nothing much another person can do to really make you feel better. But you can.

Cry your heart out if you must, but know that there is always a brighter side, even during the cloudiest days and stormiest nights.

And these are for you.

I hope you'll feel a little sunshine in your life soon! :)

Unknown said...

I'll Try Anything Once - by The Strokes

Ten decisions shape your life,
you'll be aware of 5 above,
7 ways to go through school,
either you're noticed or left out,
7 ways to get ahead,
7 reasons to drop by,
when i said ' I can see me in your eyes',
you said 'I can see you in my bed',
that's not just friendship that's romance too,
you like music we can dance to,

Sit me down,
Shut me up,
i'll calm down,
and i'll get along with you,

There is a time when we all fail,
some people take it pretty well,
some take it all out on themselves,
some they just take it out on friends,
oh everybody plays the game,
and if you don't you're called insane,

Don't don't don't don't it's not safe no more,
i've got to see you one more time,
soon you were born,
in 1984,

Sit me down,
shut me up,
i'll calm down,
and i'll get along with you,

Everybody was well dressed,
and everybody was a mess,
6 things without fail you must do,
so that your woman loves just you,
oh all the girls played mental games,
and all the guys were dressed the same,

Why not try it all,
if you only remember it once,
oooooooooo, ooooooooooooo,

Sit me down,
shut me up,
i'll calm down,
and i'll get along with you.

Pam Song said...

ATTN: kellster
– My head is splitting. Seriously. And no, I don't feel better. I just want to escape. Run away. Disappear.


ATTN: Andrew Chua
– Thank you for noticing. It was that ear. =)

And yes. It's my right to cry. But why don't I feel better? Why does it still hurt inside? Why do I do this to myself? And why do I now hate myself for having cried?


ATTN: choco
"There's nothing much another person can do to really make you feel better. But you can."

Can I? Really? I must be doing something wrong cos I don't feel better. In fact, I feel worse.

Thanks for the babies though. But... could you please speed up that sunshine delivery? I need it right about now. Thank you.

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Chris
– So emo the track. You want me to kill myself issit? =(

Unknown said...

Har? *blushes*

Arr sorry ah, wrong track, ok, ok, make amends immediately.

TRY THIS ONE!!!

called KOKOMO

Sorry but please try this KOKOMO ok

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Chris
– Haha. I wanna escape to the Bahamas. I do. Bermuda also can.

estherlauderlyn said...

I emo-ing too... :(

But dont be sad Pammy, because then God can work YOUR way up - then there will be something to be happy and praise Him for. Neither do you have to pretend. Maybe maintaining a blog is placing too much pressure on you to keep a happy go lucky, jolly vibe? :/ Don't be sad Pam..

Unknown said...

Ooo I wanna take you down to kokomo
Well get there fast
And then well take it slow
Thats where we wanna go
Way down to kokomo

Aruba, jamaica ooo I wanna take you
To bermuda, bahama come on pretty mama
Key largo, montego baby why dont we go

HAHA, me too, me too!!!

Pam Song said...

ATTN: estherlauderlyn
– Emo-ing? Well, that makes two of us then. =(

And no, I don't think that maintaining Tinki Talks is what's draining me. In fact, now... I feel like it's about the only thing keeping me sane. My comment-leavers remind me that I'm not alone. And that no matter how sucky I feel on the inside and no matter how sucky people make me feel, I've still always got someone who listens.

And that's what's helping me get through my non-virtual world of false smiles and fake laughter.

I just feel... alone.


ATTN: Chris
– I need a holiday. A holiday alone. To clear my head. Sigh.

Unknown said...

There u go. U go girl. U need a sunshine holiday soon & somehow. December seems too far away for me!


With a Terminator, Arnold Schwarzenegger tone

Hey, rememba, U got ya readers rooting for ya. They'll be back!

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Chris
– Too bad I won't be able to take one anytime soon. -_-

Sigh.

But thanks, Chris. Thanks for rootin'. =)

choco said...

'Thanks for the babies'

hehe, thats sounds incredibly wrong and funny at the same time. :)

The sunshine you're needing so much is around you. You've said it yourself, Tinki Talks keeps you sane. Thats sunshine number 1. Your friends, parents, readers are sunshine number 2.

I don't know you very well, merely as an online personality but I'm sure you still have a lot of other sunshines.

I dunno if this will help, but the sunshine you have is not for you to get cause it's already around you.

But then again, who am I to say all this. I dunno the situation you're in. Whatever it is, Pam Song, I do hope you'll feel better soon!

''There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will,''
Unknown

''A stranger stabs you in the front; a friend stabs you in the back; a boyfriend stabs you in the heart, but best friends only poke each other with straws.
Unknown

''Turn your wounds into wisdom.''
Oprah Winfrey

Jeffro said...

*sobs sobs* Cant help it..
See ppl cry.. i oso cry.. T_T

still not feeling better?
u havent cried enough..
dun have to be angry at urslf for crying.. heck, just cry whenever u feel like it..

we'll cry with you...

*erm, i meant it in a positive way la*

TracyEm. said...

if you need someone to shut up and cry with you, i'm here.

Anonymous said...

Love is not an easy thing. It's the only baggage you can bring along but..

Keep walking.

What's happening is something no one can feel, deny nor buy it away from you but..

Keep walking.

And I know it aches and your heart breaks and you can only take so much.

Stay safe.

Leave it all behind and keep walking.

Pam Song said...

ATTN: choco
– Accurate wat. She gave me babies maaa. =p

Tinki Talks helps heaps. Like, HEAPS. And so do family and friends. But I just feel... like everything's still crashing. No matter how many people reach out and no matter how many hands I try to grab, I'm still going down.

"There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will."
– Unknown


So. True.

"A stranger stabs you in the front; a friend stabs you in the back; a boyfriend stabs you in the heart, but best friends only poke each other with straws."
– Unknown


Again, I couldn't agree more.

"Turn your wounds into wisdom."
– Oprah Winfrey


This one's a tough one but I'm trying.


ATTN: Jeffro
– I wanna see tears, yo. Not words. =p

And no, I'm not really feeling better. Just that being around people helps.


ATTN: Moey Yin Leng
– Then we'd like cry the night away and end up with puffy eyes!!! How?

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Chris C
"Keep walking.

And I know it aches and your heart breaks and you can only take so much."



I'm walking. And yes. It aches. And it breaks. But I'm walking. I just don't know when I'll collapse from all this walking.

zecount said...

well.. when u do collapse..we'll be right beside u with strenchers and all, shoulders ready to hoist u up again ... if need be, we will even stay in the spot u collapsed until u're ready to walk again

Pam Song said...

ATTN: zecount
– Awww. Thanks. And thanks for your SMS prayer.

zecount said...

well .. that's all i can do but rest assured u'll be in my prayers

Pam Song said...

ATTN: zecount
– Thanks. =) I could do with that.

Jeffro said...

*awwwhhh* *try imagine my tears coming down like nigeria falls..* =P

well yal heard what she said peeps.. She nids people around her now! Go Go Go.. grab your chair and surround her.. (NOo.. the chair not for you to whack people la.. *smacks forehead*, for you guys to sit down, when you're tired of standing lar!)

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Jeffro
– Haha. You and your jokes. Sheesh! People here talking serious stuff, yo!

*takes chair and knocks Jeffro on the head*

Jeffro said...

*matrix style, avoiding the chairs*
weih, my back bone damn pain sia avoiding that.. Next wan throw also, throw something smaller la.. =.="

Haha.. Serious post for that moment only ma.. After that time to chill.. ^_^

Placing a smile, is part of what I live to do.. Haha!

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Jeffro
– Haha. You need to exercise, mate! =p


ATTN: Jesse
– You know, faith and trust in mankind are two very difficult things to regain. And it's not easy when things happen and we're supposed to start believing again.

You're not alone. I feel you. If I could get out of it, I'm sure you can, too. Take heart. Keep the faith. Keep pressing on.

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Jesse
– Wow. I never thought I'd ever say this but... You're more emo than me! Amazing.

And trust me. I'm the Queen of Building Walls, too. Read this and know... I'm just like you. You're not alone. =)

It's not easy letting go of the past. It's not easy forgetting what's been done to us or what's taken place. But for our own good, we HAVE. TO. TRY.

And really, when you put your heart and mind to it and commit everything you are stressed up and worried about to God, it all becomes less complicated. Cos you know that everything will work out for the best.

Where are you? Malaysia? KL?

Jeffro said...

hahaha.. Probably the exercises I did wasn't enough.. I go grab some maths book first.. LOL!

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Jeffro
– Maths?! Apa kaitan???

Jeffro said...

Ermmm.. Coz Math's always got exercise? Teacher always said practice them, you'll get better.. ^_^

Jeffro said...

(O_O) Jesse..
So looooong wan ur comment..
Wondered Kak Pam got read it o not..
Kekekeke xD

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Jeffro
– You need better Math teachers. -_-

And of course I read the comment. I read all comments. Just that sometimes I can't find the time to really respond to replies as much as I want to. =(


ATTN: Jesse
– Hey Jesse,

Sorry for taking so long. Have been crazy busy lately. I hope you're keeping well and that all things are fine with you.

Thanks for your compliment on my age-old post. And... just so you know, I'm queen of caves, too. Haha.

Your comment seemed like a post. A very emo post. Indeed the only way from down is up. But... we never really know if we're all the way down already or we're still flailing mid air.

And I know exactly what you mean when you say, "The absence of faith and trust equals to a void. A void that is now filled with rage."

I've felt it, too. I was so alone and I felt so misunderstood that I began to be frustrated with my situation. And then I got angry with the rest of the world. The rest of MY world. Those who told me that they cared and loved me. I think that it's a natural response. And honestly speaking... it's less painful than being sad. Anger is our mind's escape route from the pain we feel.

And no worries about the ranting. I rant too. A lot.

Jeffro said...

LOL.. Ya.. i dun reli like 'em.. hahahaha..

Ooo.. you can write as long as Jesse write.. LOL.. writers... ~____~

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Jeffro
– You know Jesse???

And I liked Math. I just didn't like the homework. =p I'm a lazy bum. Haha.

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