Artist: Lene Marlin
Song Title: All I Can Say
If I got scared I don't know
It just did not feel right anymore
Something's changed from before, I wish I knew
I did not want to hurt you, I don't want to still
But I'll be around, you know I will
I just have to face the day
Now all I can say
[CHORUS]
All I can say is, I need more
All I can say is, I'm so sorry for
The promises I made to you
What I said I would do
I could make it all good, I could say that I'd try
But that would be a lie, you don't deserve
I got lost in the moment, I was lost in you
I tried to ignore it, but then I had to
Had to face the day
Now all I can say
[CHORUS]
All I can say is, I need more
All I can say is, I'm so sorry for
The promises I made to you
What I said I would do
[BRIDGE]
And I'm hoping that you can forgive me
And I'm praying that you don't think less of me
And I'm hoping that you will see it too
See that it is for the better
[CHORUS]
All I can say is, I need more
All I can say is, I'm so sorry for
The promises I made to you
What I said I would do
All I can say is, I need more
All I can say is, I'm so sorry for
The promises I made to you
What I said I would do
All I can say
All I can say
Haa aa aa
Yeah. Right.
Honestly, if not for the lousy connection, I'd have torrent-ed. Kiam siap, I know. But, oh well, I guess it's time to invest a little into my music collection. Yes yes, money spent on music is money well spent indeed. You guys should really check out her official website. It's really kinda cool and full of funk. Very contemporary. It reminds me of a child's diary. Or perhaps a teenager's scrapbook. Whatever it is, I classify the look as: I like. I like a lot a lot.
I've been listening to this track way too much. Every night, actually. And to be honest, I haven't really made it past this track. I got stuck on it while I was listening to the album the first time round and the thing is, it's Track 2 on the album! Sigh. Oh well, I did BUY the album so I might as well make full use of every track there is on it, no?
This song isn't like the other break-up songs of the season. Many such songs of late are from the dump-ee's point of view – from those who've been hurt, from those who've just realized their worth after being cheated upon, etc… Well, this one comes from the dump-er's point of view. Not bad, huh? A change for once. Perspective is good. Albeit a very caring one. You see, if you really study the lyrics, she says what she says with the guy's best interest at heart (although he probably doesn't know it yet).
"I could make it all good, I could say that I'd try
But that would be a lie, you don't deserve"
I like her songwriting style (the way her words fit into the tune), and I love the way she sings her songs (the way her emotions rise in her voice). Nothing fancy, but beautiful nonetheless. And although it's a break-up song, I feel a certain peace in her voice. I can't exactly explain it. It's sort of like she's resigned to the way things have worked out between them and that what she's going to do is face the day.
"I just have to face the day
Now all I can say
All I can say is, I need more
All I can say is, I'm so sorry for
The promises I made to you
What I said I would do"
I have to commend her on this though. It's not easy saying sorry for empty promises made. See, although she said she needed more in a guy, she also realized that there were things she promised him that she as a woman could no longer offer him, now that they've parted ways. She didn't blame him for the failure of their relationship. Instead, she apologized for walking away from it. Kudos, Lene, kudos.
You know, people think that dump-ers don't hurt. They do. Hey, they went through a break-up, too. I feel that as much as the guy she's dumped hurt, she hurt as well. Well, probably not as much but she did care. She probably still does. After all, feelings don't die overnight, do they. It looks like they just took a wrong turn in terms of their relationship. They'd probably have been better off as friends. And if so, it'd be more than painful to lose a partner AND a friend on the very same day.
"And I'm hoping that you can forgive me
And I'm praying that you don't think less of me"
It's scary to ask for a break-up. It's never easy to start the uh-we-need-to-talk conversation. It takes a lot of guts but it'd be better than living a lie. It's way better than lying about your extent of love to someone you care about. And of course, if you ever cared for your partner-cum-soon-to-be-ex, you'd want them to be able to forgive you for "wasting" their time, wouldn't you? You wouldn't want them to think any less of you simply because things didn't work out, right? See, this is why I feel that this song represents the "right way" to call it quits. It's the message of that heart that's different. The calling-off seems to have been done with a sweet spirit and with the best of intentions.
"And I'm hoping that you will see it too
See that it is for the better"
I agree that some break-ups are for the better. Not all, but some. Sometimes it takes some time apart for perspective to set in. Sometimes it takes some time apart to realize that life could, in fact, be sweeter with someone else. Some-other-times, it takes some time apart to realize that you wouldn't have life any other way simply because when you're together, life is good.
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My head is all over the place,
my thoughts aren't flowing properly,
my words aren't coming out right,
and I can tell that I'm probably
already confusing some of you.
Sigh.
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"I did not want to hurt you, I don't want to still
But I'll be around, you know I will"
I'm assuming that last line was meant to comfort. I'm sure it was written with good intention. But you know what? To the brokenhearted, that's not much comfort at all. Sometimes it can be more painful to know that even with the parting of ways, the person still wants to be around you. They just don't want to be with you. =(
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