Sunday, May 20, 2007

That Guy

Artist: The Bathroom Girl
Song Title: That Guy
Songwriter: David Choi (with original score entitled "That Guy")

Oh, tonight I'm feelin' fine, I'm alone just wastin' time
No Friday movie nights, no romantic candlelights
I'm just having conversation with the thoughts in my head
All I hear are angels cryin', oh, won't they just sing instead
I know it's wrong for me to say

[CHORUS]
I don't need that guy by my side, I don't need that guy in my life
I don't wanna talk it out or let him hold me when I cry
I don't wanna say he's my kind, I don't wanna say that he's mine
I don't wanna tell him that I love him more than life
More than life (Whoa oh oh)
I love him more than life

Honestly this won't do, how is he doin'
I tell myself I'm feelin' swell but I know I'm such a fool
Just take it as a new beginning but you know I don't feel that way
Who will take this pain away
And I know it's wrong for me to say

[CHORUS]
I don't need that guy by my side, I don't need that guy in my life
I don't wanna talk it out or let him hold me when I cry (No)
I don't wanna say he's my kind, I don't wanna say that he's mine
I don't wanna tell him that I love him more than life
More than life (Whoa oh hoo)
I love him more than life

Talk about us and... was the day I walked to the other side
I would walk back in, I wouldn't waste no time
And I know it's wrong for me to say

[CHORUS]
I don't need that guy by my side, I don't need that guy in my life
I don't wanna talk it out or let him hold me when I cry (No)
I don't wanna say he's my kind, I don't wanna say that he's mine
I don't wanna tell him that I love him more than life (Whoa oh hoo)
I love him more than life (Oh oh whoa)
I love him more than life (Oh oh whoa)





Sometimes the things you wanna say the most
are what you just can't seem to bring yourself to say.


Kinda makes you wonder:

Maybe those words are just not meant to be said. Or maybe they are and you're just too chicken on the inside to risk it. Maybe the outcome won't be what you always hoped it would be. Maybe if you said what you really wanted to say, you wouldn't get what you really wanted to get. Maybe everything is but a bunch of Maybies and, try as you may to pass the first Maybe, you'll soon find that the second Maybe is already hot on its tail and you might as well have not passed that first Maybe in the first place.


Sigh. Maybe.


It sucks that Happiness plays the picky hitchhiker in this play we call Life. It so very often sticks its thumb out, attracts your attention, checks out your ride, does a double-take... and turns it's back on you after you've jammed the brakes and plastered a Welcome smile on your face for good measure. Problem is this: Say what you want to say and you're no longer in the running for any happiness that would have been brought your way should you have kept your mouth shut.


Worse, don't say what you wanna say and you pathetically attempt to cast your cares and sorrows into the deepest, darkest oceans, only to be retrieved upon the next emotional upheaval. In the mean time, though, you can be sure that, silent and dormant as it may appear to be, it slowly eats at you from the inside out, digesting every ounce of happiness you may have gained with each passing day.


Why is it that some days, Happiness seems but a step away, but on other days, she's further than where I am to where I want to be? Happiness picks her own ward, that's why. All you can do is hope and pray that that ward is you. And if Happiness doesn't stop by your table as often as she should, maybe it's time to realise that you're sitting at the wrong table.

29 comments :

Sakura said...

i couldn't agree more.. damn.. happiness is like.. there it was rit in front of u in a blink.. n then a minute of happiness flow.. its all over.. like.. i can't find it the way it was when it arrives.. sigh~
i wanna be happy.. as a gift to everyday of my life.. but sad to say tat a phrase of "everyday is a great day", does not come tat pretty.. :(

Anonymous said...

well ... that's why we need more joy instead happiness .. all i can say is choose to be happy .. u may be feeling like crap but hey is a choice whether to response to that crap or go the other way :) .. and i never said it was easy mind u ..anyways

The Joy of the Lord is my strength :)
Forecast
sunny days with blue skies :)

Anonymous said...

Hmm...without unhappiness, how possibly we know the true meaning of happiness and be able to cherish it when it arrives? No doubt, some happiness will not last long but I am grateful that I did get a taste out of it. Better than having none at all right?

And aihhh...unhappiness always arrives when we least expect it. But still I choose to live victoriously regardless of all the unhappiness. It is just not worth it to let unhappiness snatches away my life when there are plenty of other things to be cherished in life.

Yes Zecount! You rock! The joy of the Lord is my strength! That was one of the lines that kept me going when the storm was rocking hard. Cheers, =))

Pam Song said...

AAARRRGGGHHH!!! I typed a comment to reply your comments already and the stupid page didn't load!!! GERAM!

Pam Song said...

ATTN: christy
– Dang, I so can't remember what I wanted to say to you. Nevermind. I say other things di. Haha.

Sometimes, I find that Happiness is a temptress. It lures me out into the open where I lay vulnerable without the protection of the hedges that would have surrounded me if I were but a few feet back. It calls me out to it.

And then it lets me get shot at.

Sigh.

Maybe it's cos I want it so badly that I just keep going out into the meadow even when I know the consequences of that action.

Sigh. Maybe we're just feeling this way cos we're PMS-ing or something.


ATTN: zecount
– Hmmm. Joy vs. Happiness. That's an interesting notion. But joy requires Happiness to be full! So then how?

I sure hope your forecast comes to past.


ATTN: adhojlim
– Hmmm. It's interesting you should say that. Sure, I believe that you never appreciate what you've got until you lose it. But then, I disagree that you need to experience unhappiness in order to know the true meaning of happiness.

You see, my argument is this: it doesn't take EXPERIENCING sorrow to be thankful for joys. I don't have to have been abused before for me to love and appreciate my parents for being kind and loving to me. Right? Say your mom is nice to you. And you truly appreciate her. Did she have to have hurt you in the past for you to appreciate how nice she is to you today? No.

And anyway, let's take missionaries, for example. There are many who read about wars and suffering and then choose to risk their lives, going into countries all over the world to preach the gospel. They READ. They didn't have to have experience war for themselves in order to know how precious it is to be living in a place without war.

To me, when people say stuff like, "Without happiness, how can we possibly know the true meaning of happiness when it comes our way," they're just consoling themselves so that they don't feel as bad about their unhappiness. Self-deception. A mean manipulation.

Pam Song said...

Sigh. Reading back, I feel that my original replies were better. Dang.

Anonymous said...

Nolar...its not manupulationla fren. Its to keep you moving forward despite of all the unhappiness that could have spurs out. No point of allowing the unhappiness to steals away or consumes your life right?

Things always happen for a reason. Good or bad. Of coursela, I want the good ones to come but if it doesnt come then be thankful for that as wellar because God is still there for us mah. The real joy comes in not when we are full with happiness onlyla fren, but it available for us at all times. Grab it or not, it is always a matter of choicela..

And I learned not to appreciate things not only at good times but in bad times as well. To be honest, it is even harder to do that in bad times. If you think that way, you will feel better Pam.

All things works through for its own causela fren. You might not agree with me but trust me..you will shed some lights when you grow older. I was like youla..last time...Sigh! But I learned..hehe =))

Anonymous said...

Missed this out earlier...hmmm...since you used these 2 examples.

As for the missionaries related example: Missionaries, when they are out there....they are not at physical warla....but the war(at spiritual realm) that they are at is even greater than at the physical war. But does it means that they dont feel upset at all and they should stop themselves from moving forward in the love of God? You know the answer right?


As for the mum related question: I encountered a lot of 'hurtsla' (got hitla, punishla and bla bla bla) from my parent since toddler...but does that means that my parent does not love me and I should rebel against them? No right?

So it depends on how you open your heart to different perceptions at difficult times. Turn to Lord Jesus for answers when it is difficult for you to understand what is happening around. I believe God will grants us the knowledge & wisdom to change things that should be changed and the senerity to accept things that cannot be changed. In that sense, I believe God will heals our land.

Anonymous said...

I hate this...typo error again

senerity ->serenity

Pam Song said...

Yeah. Keep me moving forward. But isn't that messing with your own head to keep yourself moving forward?

I know it's a matter of choice. But I'm not talking about our choice here. I'm talking about the choice lying with Happiness.

Uh... wait a second. You know what? Who said I'm unhappy? My focus for this post was what to say and what not to say. Goodness.

And regarding those two examples... I'm talking about the missionary's decision to even go there. Not about what kind of war he's facing while he's there la. And you totally missed the point. This has nothing to do with them feeling upset then not wanting to move forward. I'm talking about what MAKES them WANT to go out there and help in the first place.

And as for your mom bit. Cheh. Who also kena hit and kena punished la. Spare the rod and spoil the child. I'm talking about ABUSED children. The kind who lose their eyes and end up being crippled for life. What you faced is NOTHING compared to what these kids go through. But did you have to go through it in order to appreciate the mom you have who loves you? NO.

That's my point. There is no need to EXPERIENCE the bad to appreciate and feel the good. All it takes is KNOWING the bad.

Anonymous said...

hmm .. i kinda disagree with tht .. i dun believe u need to be happy to feel joy ... i can always give u the standard answer and all with bible reference hahahaha but again i think u also know lah

for me i say joy comes from inside..no matter what the circumstances i'm facing there's always a joy in my heart that says this is temporal

Happiness i feel is external.. when situations are good we're happy and we're not we're sad ... and happiness cannot motivate anyone cos it's temporal ..that's what i feel anyway

i think it's in Ecc that says we should seeks things that are eternal and not temporal ... it's like building ur house on sand

Anonymous said...

Aiyaa....Who dunno you are a happy Queen? BTW, Im not refering to youla...why so sakit? =P hahaha

I got your point onela... just wanna be long winded a bit...that is what tinki talks are for right?
Yah! Ideally it is not neccesary to experience the bad in order to know what is good. However at some instance, experiencing the bad is not entirely bad either mah. Who knows it could be a new chapter of life to begin with? Well...life goes on! =)

Anonymous said...

Zecount: Bravo! I agree with you! It really pays to visit Hope Brisbane isnt it?

Anonymous said...

BTW, the lady with guitar has really good voice. She has a set of cute two front teeth.....haha =) Nice post though.

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Zecount
– As for what I said about Joy vs. Happiness, I took it from the dictionary. Look it up and you'll see. Heck, I'll be nice and even plaster it here for you.

"a feeling of great pleasure and happiness"

Your happiness tank has to be filled for there to be joy. But don't you see, though this is the humanistic take on joy, it still applies! Cos it really depends on your source of joy. If the source is one from above, then it doesn't matter how life treats you.

But then, you guys are holy-fying everything. You see, sure. The source of your joy is Christ and all that. But I'm talking about being happy with life and whatever it brings you, without taking in the spiritual component.

Faith to believe that what you're going through is understandable. In fact, its commendable. But since when is happiness any more temporal than your situation?


ATTN: adhojlim
– Tak sakit. But see see like you're on a different track.

And wwaaaait a second. What has what Zecount said got to do with Hope Brisbane?

Anonymous said...

Sometimes its fun to see people runs on different track mah...tben you learn some extra 'kungfu' huh!

Oh! About Hope Brisbane...hehe.... I sense strongly that Zecount is on fire for God! Just curious whether the sermons in Hope Brisbane that drives that fire in within...=)

Anonymous said...

Sometimes its fun to see people runs on different track mah...tben you learn some extra 'kungfu' huh!

Oh! About Hope Brisbane...hehe.... I sense strongly that Zecount is on fire for God! Just curious whether the sermons in Hope Brisbane that drive the fire in within...=)

Anonymous said...

eh..how come 2 copies are published one? weird??

Sakura said...

i always believe tat.. when i really wanted something so badly.. and i work hard on it.. i will eventually get it.. but it doesn't apply to the case of happiness.. especially on relationship... so sad..

Anonymous said...

"But I'm talking about being happy with life and whatever it brings you, without taking in the spiritual component."

tinki u cannot split the physical n the spiritual becos we are made that way..the physical and spiritual all in one package ... and also using our own knowledge to define joy is just not sufficient .. i wasn't even satisfied with my own definition

"Your happiness tank has to be filled for there to be joy"
to me i think that tank can never be filled cos it's temporal
why not fill ur joy tank for there to be happiness?

Adrian:
hehehe well can't credit it to any church cos i come from 3!! just thank God that He gave me insights in my walk

Anonymous said...

Hey babe,

There are times when we can't seemed to decipher what makes us happy anymore because the happiness that was supposedly bound to make us happy NOW are "overdues". We're not feeling the moment because we have way passed these happy moments.

Anonymous said...

well with all that has been said .. i think the ultimate thing would be this

God is our provider ... for the physical stuff, the mental stuff, emotional stuff and spiritual stuff

Pam Song said...

Wait ah, wait ah. Reply your comments in a bit.

Pam Song said...

ATTN: adhojlim
– This isn't about meeting people from different walks of life la. I know plenty of ppl from different walks. Ask Zecount! He'll tell you. I'm saying you like a bit no flow that's why I asked.

Eeyer. As much as your zeal and fire for God is a good thing, once you tie in fire to being in certain churches, I really feel that it's a turn off. For me, I believe that... Sure. There are cultures in different churches. I am proud of CHC's culture. But I don't go around saying, "Eh! You're a fantastic guy! You must be from CHC la." No wat! Cos fantastic guys do come from elsewhere also.


ATTN: Christy
– Sigh. Babe, believe me. Working hard at anything but love and happiness may bring you what you want. But when it comes to these two areas, sigh... Cannot wan lor. In terms of love & relationship, it's cos it takes two to clap. You clap like mad but the other person don't clap also no sound. And of course, for people like us, both these areas are linked. Our happiness comes from being loved. And when the love part isn't taken care of, then ma no happiness lor.


ATTN: zecount
– See, that's exactly what I mean. Everything is holy-fied already. It's not about detaching the spiritual from the natural in me, it's about putting one aside in a discussion.

And you can't reverse that. Happiness is but ONE component in joy. It's like saying I live in Malaysia, Penang. You know? You've overturned it. Joy is like Malaysia and Happiness is but one state in it. See?


ATTN: Nisha
– Hey ya babe,

Honestly, I don't believe in by-passed happy moments. You either had happy moments, am having happy moments or are about to have happy moments. It can't be that the happy times you're looking for are over.


ATTN: Everyone
– Do you guys even realise that you're all missing the point of the post? I've narrowed it down to Happiness that comes from saying stuff or NOT saying stuff. NOT happiness in general.

Anonymous said...

Aiyar babe...

I was not talking about your post per say, I am indeed talking about happiness in a different aspect but under the umbrella of happiness.

When I said;

"There are times when we can't seemed to decipher what makes us happy anymore because the happiness that was supposedly bound to make us happy NOW are "overdues".

What I was trying to say that sometimes when you thrive so much in searching for YOUR sort of happiness, and when you do receive YOUR SUPPOSED HAPPINESS by other people's definition,

"We're not feeling THE moment because we have way passed these happy moments".

Here, I am saying that you're still not happy because everyone has different take on what happiness is all about, what someone else deemed to make you happy may not necessarily be what makes you happy, probably because when we did anticipate "the are about to have happy moments", and never receive it then.

Understand where I am coming from?
Still no...
Okaylar, nevermind then.

Anonymous said...

hahahaha ...well this is another post that i disagree with u but hey u and me memang different

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Nisha
– Wait a sec. Then in that case it shouldn't be about happy moments (past, present or future) anymore. It's about Love Languages! Cos no matter how much people invest into your life, if they use a different Love Language to express their love to you than what you'd wanna receive, then it'll all be to no avail. In the end, you'll still feel unloved.

Unloved = Unhappy?


ATTN: zecount
– See, that's the cool thing about our friendship. It's okay to agree to disagree. We rock.

Anonymous said...

yea !!! we rock !!

Anonymous said...

Nolar...I didnt mention that congregation from other churches will not have the zeal or fire for Jesus! It just that Im very sure, if you attend Hope churches b4, surely you will be blessed spiritually. Ask Zecount..he will surely understand what I said here...its not attaching yourself to any church but to JESUS! =)

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