I just finished it.
Thing is, my heart started breaking the moment the words started flowing. In fact, I still cry as I write this post. Why is it so difficult this time around? Why does it cause me so much pain? Why? Have I not already had enough of it all? Have I not had enough of what I've gotten myself stuck with?
Maybe it's cos it's my first time. But then again, maybe not. You see, I think I'm going through so much pain because I don't really want to finish it. I'm only finishing it out of frustration. Not out of lack of love. And it doesn't help that the longer I wait, the longer I would cause myself time alone with no one I cared for. In fact, as of now, I've already guaranteed myself more than a month of loneliness, no thanks to my fear. Sigh.
I'm doing it tomorrow. Wish me luck.