I just finished it.
Thing is, my heart started breaking the moment the words started flowing. In fact, I still cry as I write this post. Why is it so difficult this time around? Why does it cause me so much pain? Why? Have I not already had enough of it all? Have I not had enough of what I've gotten myself stuck with?
Maybe it's cos it's my first time. But then again, maybe not. You see, I think I'm going through so much pain because I don't really want to finish it. I'm only finishing it out of frustration. Not out of lack of love. And it doesn't help that the longer I wait, the longer I would cause myself time alone with no one I cared for. In fact, as of now, I've already guaranteed myself more than a month of loneliness, no thanks to my fear. Sigh.
I'm doing it tomorrow. Wish me luck.
29 comments :
hey hey hey......whats wrong girl? you wont be alone dear pam... we'll be by your side.... :)
well, whatever you do....i wish you luck!! okay?........
ATTN: sheon
– Thanks, Sheon. Appreciate it. =)
there there *gives a pat on the back* there's always us right??
I think I know what the big day is.. Don't worry.. You're not alone on this :)
DGMBians still here for you..dont forget..apa alone alone ini?
=)
Good luck!
ATTN: zecount
– Yes, there's always friends. =)
ATTN: SarahMeiAnn
– Thanks, babe. Appreciate it. I think I need retail therapy after this. Will call.
ATTN: Nigelais
– Thanks, Nigel. Yes, there's always you guys. My inbox spammers. The ones I've gotten used to. =)
You have lots of yang yang in store for you this weekend.
Always here for you,
Mee & Dee
ATTN: Melsong
– I know. =)
Retail therapy it is!
ATTN: SarahMeiAnn
=)
U finally gonna train a record breaking 350 jantans at a convention tomorrow ? hehe :)
Anyway, good luck
ATTN: Leon
-_-
But thanks for the wish of luck. I know it was difficult for you. =p
Feel better :) By the way, Ping Ping is on my team in Project Trafford! She is super cute and happy happy like the people in her banner one.... :D
ATTN: The Faux Fashionista
– Aargh, darn it I should have written in for Project Trafford. =(
Such a small world this blogging area is turning into. Haha. Everybody knows everybody these days. =p
And thanks. =)
Deep....deep... Really deep...
Still, good luck for every friday in your life. =) Of course you can edit the friday to any other day, customize one, easier. Woih...I sound like some old witch with websites and codes to customize blessings. T.T
Anyway, really, good luck. =) I am not DGMB-ians but I am a blogger, bloggers love one another. =)
so mysterious.....big day to claim your 625 fuel subsidy for a year ka?
*grin at the super kiam siap Pam Song* =P
ATTN: Ping Ping
– Haha. Deep is good. Very good. =p
And thanks, Ping Ping. You're my very own website witch of blessing codes. =p I shall remember to dig up this day-to-day blessing anytime I need it. =p
And yes! Bloggers love bloggers!
Honestly though, I sometimes find that my blog readers end up knowing me better than my friends who don't read my blog but know me in real life. Haha. Guess I'm more honest here on Tinki Talks than I am face to face. Haha. Oh well...
ATTN: Adrian Lim
– Haha. No way, man! It' so so jammed! Like siao liddat! I saw pictures on some other dude's blog and it was CRAZY! I'm not going anywhere near that till the hype and kiasuness is over. Don't forget that I'm also kia si. =p
Song Song Jie Jie, Goodie Luck ya. Sayangggggggggggg.......... LOL
Tender resignation cheh mah.
Go get it ASAP....you will never know if MAS will change administration...=P
ATTN: Charlie
– Haha. Thanks. But where in the world did that nick come from!? Haha.
ATTN: Simon Seow
– Says who? Never assume. Haha. There are reasons to why I speak in code.
ATTN: Adrian Lim
– WHAT!? Uh... MAS? What in the world are you talking about lah?
cheh! This woman never watch Thomas cup wan....there....the T-shirt that the Malaysian's team wears "MAS" rite?....
Song Song Jie Jie, I'm creative leh. hahaha, thats just random k
ATTN: Adrian Lim
– Am not a big fan of sports.
ATTN: Charlie
– Haha. Ya la ya la. Very creative. =p
And very random. Haha.
wei, Song Song jie jieeeeee. when is the next gathering? still owe me a drink loh for ffking me the last time. sighhhhhhhhhh
ATTN: Charlie
– Haha. Don't worry, don't worry. We'll definitely do another. Soon soon. When there are less Nuffnang events. We find that we're always out on the weekends. Makes Mondays extra bluesy. Haha.
hahaha, same here, always busy but at the ned of the week, i always wonder where all my time went. sigh maybe someone is stealing my time....
ATTN: Charlie
– Yeah! Me, too! I find that the days just fly by and my weekends just disappear! Sigh. I need 32-hour weekend days. (And 12-hour weekdays. =p)
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