When we're awake and going about our day, we're the masters of our destiny. It is WE who control our thoughts, and nothing and nobody else. We direct our thoughts and we administer our actions. The power is in OUR hands.
But we don't hold the cards all the time.
The cards are turned when Sleep takes over.
Sigh.
The cards are turned when Sleep takes over.
Sigh.
In slumber, the mind wanders. The subconscious mind shows us what we fail to see when our eyes are open. When we're asleep, we see the truth in our situations. We catch glimpses of our deepest desires, our innermost insecurities, and our greatest fears. Yeah, we see our fears, and our fears are never more apparent.
Sigh.
Yes, yes. In slumber the mind wanders, alright.
And in the end, it becomes we who defeat ourselves.
Yes, yes. In slumber the mind wanders, alright.
And in the end, it becomes we who defeat ourselves.
The series of thoughts, images, and sensations occurring in our minds during sleep are never more real or vivid than they come. Glaring and intense, these images have the ability to produce powerful feelings and invoke strong, clear images in our minds. We see, hear and feel in dreams. That's what makes bad dreams so painful to bear and so difficult to get over.
The problem is, when we return to consciousness, our wakened mind suffer the aftereffects of our dreams. They retain memories that serve as nothing more than painful repercussions from a highly unintended and unwelcome knowledge of that truth we've hidden thus far – truth that we've hidden from everyone, even from ourselves.
Dreams bring awareness.
We are slapped with an added dose of consciousness upon returning to consciousness. Understanding dawns and we come to the sad realization that we're weak on the inside no matter how strong we appear to be on the outside. Awareness is a good thing, I guess. But this insight in familiar territory is a problem. It brings nothing but chaos and emotional upheaval. It bring awareness to the things we never realized we were worried about.
Sigh.
Dreams bring awareness, and Sleep brings dreams.
Darn it.
The thought of my impending siesta never brought
such negative connotations before.
I don't want to fall asleep.
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Dreams bring awareness, and Sleep brings dreams.
Darn it.
The thought of my impending siesta never brought
such negative connotations before.
I don't want to fall asleep.
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Artist: Across The Sky
Song Title: Broken World
Promises shattered, answers don't come
Friends say goodbye, plans come undone
Dreams get crushed, lies get told
Words can turn cruel, hearts can grow cold
[CHORUS]
In a broken world where we cry to feel
Some hope that helps these hearts to heal
You're my strength, You're my refuge
In a broken world, Jesus I'm holding to You
You make sense of the madness and You make darkness flee
You bring such a calm to the chaos in me
Show me life, tell me truth
Day after day I keep running to You
[CHORUS]
In a broken world where we cry to feel
Some hope that helps these hearts to heal
You're my strength, You're my refuge
In a broken world, Jesus I'm holding to You
Long ago, we fell so far
Yet You came to where we are
[CHORUS]
In a broken world where we cry to feel
Some hope that helps these hearts to heal
You're my strength, You're my refuge
In a broken world, Jesus I'm holding to You
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"Promises shattered, answers don't come
Friends say goodbye, plans come undone
Dreams get crushed, lies get told
Words can turn cruel, hearts can grow cold"
I am aware, O Lord. Painfully aware.
I live in a broken world.
"You make sense of the madness
And You make darkness flee
You bring such a calm
To the chaos in me"
But I'll be alright for it's You I'm holding on to. No one but You.
"Promises shattered, answers don't come
Friends say goodbye, plans come undone
Dreams get crushed, lies get told
Words can turn cruel, hearts can grow cold"
I am aware, O Lord. Painfully aware.
I live in a broken world.
"You make sense of the madness
And You make darkness flee
You bring such a calm
To the chaos in me"
But I'll be alright for it's You I'm holding on to. No one but You.
34 comments :
wa lau so deep ...until half way blur liao a bit hahaha ... eh what was the msg again??
Aiyo. Catch no ball issit? The message was that when I have bad dreams, it makes me see what I have chosen not to see. Everything my conscious mind pushes aside, it recovers and shoves it into my face, demanding my attention. It brings me face to face with my fears. I don't like. But why do I have fear? Cos it's a broken world we live in. But... I know that in this broken world, as long as I hold on to Him, He makes sense of everything for me and calms the storms. Bottom line, I'll hold on to Him for only He makes everything alright in this broken world.
Tada.
but then.. i've got funny dreams before.. i don't think it's waht i want...
like.
i dreamt i got stabbed in the tummy when i was 7.
and i dreamt i got molested when i was 15.
and i dreamt my big fish was eating me. shit.
oh ..... so simple thing also can make until so long ...i salute man
ATTN: Sara
– Whoa. Talk about having bad dreams, man! Alright, you win. *blink blink* Nah. No way. I still win. Heh. =p
How come Sara never come up to Penang no more? =(
ATTN: Zecount
– Of course laaaa. Have to run it through my mind then elaborate maaaa. Expanding your thoughts. Learn a bit larrrr. Men are sometimes too simple minded. Boring la wei.
that's y lah u ladies talk soooo much latest statistic its 7000 words to ladies 20000 words leh !!! ..and yes men are simple creatures ... but we chose to remain silent n speak onli at the most beneficial moment hehehe .. even bible also say wise men listen while fools blabbers away hahahah
HEY! Bugger, you! That's SO not true okayyy. Guys rank at 15,000 words a day. Don't lie. And especially when it comes to you, I doubt you just reach that. I'm sure you burst right through that limit. Kaa-boooom! Leon, you talk too much. *grin*
nope not lying ..memang guys onli 7000 heheheh n besides always u ladies say we men dun talk enough .. now me no problem liao loh "p
You bluuuffff!
no really ... i just wrote about it some day ago
Then your research is off cos Ps also preached about this before and it was 15K! Hah!
15 k was last time ...latest is 7 k really
Okay, fine. This time let you win so that Jacob dun fire me. HAHA.
walau weh ... i won ... need to put down in history already ... here in auzzie dunno got toto or not ... sure win today man
Oh yeah hor! You in Aus already! Haha. Well well. How's life man? And yes. Jot it down. It's a rare occasion indeed. Heh.
at the moment auzzie treating me nice ... public transport is a breeze here hahaha ...somemore no need to pay cos i from QUT yo ho !!
Yeah, yeah. Show off. Hell, petrol here is still so freaking expensive! Beh tahan ah... Eh, tell me about QUT la. My dream uni you know.
well QUT has 3 campuses, kelvin grove, garden point and carsa-sumthing (funny funny australian names lah) mine is at garden point and it's right next to the botanical gardens ... super nice .. can sit on grass n have picnic those kinda nice..sumtimes i have my lunch there .. oh n it's right next to the city so pretty convient ... campus is not too big but (if ur thinking UMS or UM no not that big) i would say sumthing like monash uni all the say til church like that the area ..sumthing like that lah not very sure ...what else u wanna know
eh since now auzzie dollar dah drop .. why not consider studying??? at least no need to work and u get to attend ur dream uni .. hehehe .. worth thinking about
HAHA. It's called Carseldine, Mr. Aiyo. I wanted to do the Bachelor of Mass Communication. That would have taken me to Gardens Point and Kelvin Grove. I wouldn't have had to visit Carseldine either. Haha. So actually, no need to learn the name. HAHA.
And no lar. So expensive still! It's still high, you know. And I already have my degree. No much point taking another one in the same field lor. Sigh. Tempting but... no. =( My time has passed.
*blink blink*
Maybe for my Masters?
u can always check it out ...a masters is like 1 to 1 1/2 years ?? ok gua if ur not spending too much ..n u cook what ... somemore no car to drive safe lots dy ...just cut down on the shopping sprees can dy
Oh man! I heard all about the shopping sprees there! My friends are going nuts! They say everything's dead cheap. Aih. I waaaaaant!
And take 1 - 1 1/2 years off with no income doesn't sound so cool just yet. Gimmie some time to work myself dry then maybe I'll take that time off to study to my heart's content. That's a pretty good plan too! AND I get to go to QUT. Dreams CAN come true.
sigh ... how can a man save money lah with a gf like that ..kesian ... hahaha
well .. at least that's a plan ..but by then will u have the mood to study?? or maybe a holiday would be better? 1 month break
HEY!!! I take full offense in that! Wei, I EARN my OWN money okayyy. Who needs guys for clothes, shoes and bags? Cheh. Paling paling also to help carry only. HAH! Teruk la youuuuu. Hati sakit only got friend think me like that.
When it comes to this, I think it can be nice that boyfriends pamper their girlfriends with gifts and trinkets. But that doesn't mean that she should ever EXPECT it. See? It's his prerogative to give. His call. But all in all, whatever she wants, SHE should be able to afford it. Or else, don't expect anyone else to come up with that kind of money for her buys.
And it goes both ways too! Girls who spoil their boyfriends with gifts also do their part in investing in the relationship in another language of love ma. Tell you la. I used to spend a lot on gifts for my guy wan. I pay attention lor. When he mentions things he likes. Or when I see things I know he'll like, I get it for him lor. Eh, I very fair wan leh. And not like you all dunno. I dun think like a lot of girls.
Hmmm. I should really blog this man. Interesting topic.
I dunno if I'll be semangat to study by the time I'm earning enough to go back to studying la. But if I don't then nevermind lor. But I think it'll be a good break also la. Take some time off frmo work and invest in self advancement. Not bad wat. And OF COURSE I'll take holidays. Once every year. AT LEAST. I need to invest in myself also you know! Unhealthy to just work and not play.
Wow. Essay sia. =p
tahu pun ahahhaa ... ohh ..so this is the comment that spark the post hahahah .. anyways was joking onli lah need bo so sensitive ...soli soli loh ..yeah holidaying is good ...once a year??? hmmm ... keng eh u
Ya la! But no larrr. Not an issue of being sensitive. Just that it's an interesting topic. Cos I have some girl friends who believe that the guy SHOULD pay for everything. And that's why guys like you can think that us girls are like that lor. So just felt like clarifying. Plus, if you didn't notice, in my post, I was very fair wan. I dun take sides between girl or guy much.
Once a year considered little di lor. Next time when I'm more established, I want twice a year! HAHA.
Hey pam you slept so late! One of your comments said you posted it at around 4 a.m. =O! Insomnia?
Haha. Yeah. Last time my timetable quite happening also. Surprised? You really shouldn't be. HAHA.
And hey... You're really going WAAAYYYY back when it comes to my posts, aren't ya?
What do you mean by your timetable? Ohh it's cos I clicked on the "Dark Queen" link and saw this post =D. Haha not reading one by one lah..where got the time? Somemore next Sat finals are starting!! And I read real slowly kay..I took so long just to find this post because I forgot how I found it =P.
You don't sleep so late now right? Oh and do those two love birds in your house still make noise ;D? Don't they read your blog? Especially bout the one where you blow them to pieces?
And how are the cute hamsters? I think they're cute =).
My SLEEP timetable was what I meant. Haha. Last time like no need to sleep like that wan. Always up. Always staying up. Always about.
...and then I got old.
Bleh.
Haha. Dark Queen eh? She's gone, man. You missed her. She used to be quite happening here. Oh well. Good times, good times.
Don't you click on the "Email follow-up comments" link when you post comments? It'd make it a lot easier for you lah.
And no lah. I don't sleep so late anymore. 2am is usually the worst it gets. Unless I'm really pressed for time or I'm hit by a bad bout of insomnia.
And no. They don't read my blog wan kua. I dunno lah, actually. I never asked or wondered. Good also if they read. HAHA. At least they won't bother me as much. Anyway, it's bad to say one thing and mean another, okay. I don't mind if the people I write about know I'm writing about them. It's not like I'm gonna really pull out a shotgun and blow their heads off mah. HAHA. Though the thought IS wildly entertaining...
The hamsters are alive... for now. I think you need to reevaluate your taste in animals. Time to make an upgrade from Pests to Pets.
Ahh you're admitting you're old..haha.
Dark Queen's back now right? I know she's like the devil-side of you while Tinki's the angel-side. I read a post with a convo of the two of them ;). Why are you called Tinki, Pam?
Yah now I do click on the "Email follow-up comments" link. But problem is I don't check gmail. I use hotmail which has 5GB of storage space =D.
I didn't say you should say one thing and mean another la, I just thought it's kinda ganas loh the way you put it..I mean shooting them as though they were birds, even metaphorically sounds scary.
"It's not like I'm gonna really pull out a shotgun and blow their heads off mah. HAHA. Though the thought IS wildly entertaining..." O.o?? See what I mean?!
Eh have you actually held one in your hand and played with them? They're cute la =). Well, to each his own.
Sigh. Age does have a way of killing the life in me. But... yeah. I'm old.
*@&#%(@?>%^!!!
And no lah. Dark Queen's here for a bit only. It's Tinki land nowadays. Times have changed. =p
And yep. The Dark Queen is Tinki's evil twin. They get along most of the time. But they're total opposites.
I'm Tinki cos there was this once, I had a conversation with a friend of mine and I had Tinkerbel from Peter Pan as my MSN pic. He asked why and I told him that it was cos I was in a real good mood. So he started calling me Tinker. But then, I told him that I'd rather be Tinki (just to be different). I changed my nick to Tinki for that day, we had a good chat, laughed it off after the totally meaningless conversation and life went back to normal... but the name kinda stayed long after. Haha. Before I knew it, others on my MSN started calling me Tinki. So... There ya go. Tinki it is.
FYI, the Dark Queen came before her, actually. Haha.
Ahhh. See, that's the problem. Gmail is so much more user friendly lah. And I like the way they tile my conversations. So much better. Haha.
Haha. Thing is, I love the way metaphors dramatise what I think. Wheee! =p
Yeah, I used to have hamsters while my friend had rats. We played with them lah. But... woman, the one in my house is a RAT. Not a hamster. Do you know how many diseases those little buggers carry?
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