Monday, April 23, 2007

Inside Looking Out


I captured this image sometime last week. The view it so proudly displays always meant that I was standing at the brink of a brand new day. I loved it. I loved the feeling it brought me. What a greeting. What a way to kick off the day.


I am, by nature, not a morning person but this made the early dawns so much more bearable. I'd say that it was arguably my favourite part of the morning. Yes, arguably. But only because there was another scenic beauty that brightened my every day.


But now, this very same image makes my heart ache. When just days before, I was deeply enthralled by the glorious daylight that shone beyond the shade of the walls, today, it tells me that no matter how much I love the view that lies no more than a hundred steps before me, I'm still standing in the shade. I'm already so close to whatever that lies beyond. So close that I can already feel the warmth of the morning sun radiating off the concrete. I see it. But I can't seem to reach it.


So there I stood, a scared twenty-something year old desperately clinging on to her camera phone hoping that the sun doesn't go down on her, but is already fully covered and darkened by the shadows that seem to grow from the looming walls on either side of her.


Perspective is such a scary thing. It determines everything. And when it flips, everything else flips. These days, I can't say that I feel joy when I walk past these walls that stand between me and both sides of ground just 8 storeys below. I barely even see them.


For there is no sun. Only shadows.



40 comments :

Anonymous said...

Great snapshot! That reminds me that no matter how difficult are the turbulances in life, there is always light in the end of the tunnel.

Hmmm...better day for tommorow..=)

p/s: you are kinda good at observing details..

Pam Song said...

Thank you. I used to really love it. Yes. A better day tomorrow. Hopefully. Thanks for the compliment, by the way.

Unknown said...

I was thinking more of...

*run run run*

*JUMP!*

Pam Song said...

Which Kevin is this?

And you're nuts, you know that? Jump? Heh. 8 Floors only no fun la. KLCC very nearby.

Jono said...

For me I imagine myself standing outside in the light looking into the dark and seeing Pam in there... Spooky! hahaha

Leon said...

j0-no,

Yeah hehehe i agree wit u 100%.

I always imagine meeting pam one day in a galaxy far far away, and she says to me, "(Hisssss) Leon (hisssss), I am your Father..."

Scary right?

Jono said...

ahaha...what would be scarier is her going


(Vader)"I am your MOTHER IN LAW!!!" (/Vader)

hahahah!

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Jono & Leon
– Okay, you boys have totally lost it. Darth? Pfft. Mother-in-law? Pfft! I'm Jabba. Haha. I've always wondered what it would be like to sit and have my stomach flap over and cover my thighs. =p

Anonymous said...

this is the first time i've seen any girl refers to herself as Jabba the Hutt ...now i know u want to gain weight but Jabba is kinda like OBESE to the max kau kau leh

Leon said...

Jo-no,

To tell you honestly, I wouldn't come within 100 meters of any offsprings that belong to Pam. Ever.

The seed of pure evil. Scary..

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Zecount
– Haha. No la. I don't wanna be obese la. Haha. But still that stomach flap thing IS pretty cool (if it's detachable). =p


ATTN: Leon
– Cheh. They will be born to Greatness and shall do great things.

Jono said...

Seed of pure evil? uh-oh. Pamzilla...

The dimples can be so misleading can they not ? haha

ming said...

Nice pic...is that the bulding where you work?

anyway...i have a gift for u in my blog..wahahahaha

Anonymous said...

tummy flap ... VERY uncool

Anonymous said...

no let me rephrase that
tummy flap on guy... uncool
tummy flap on gal ... AHHHH RUN FOR COVER !!!

That pretty much sums it up

Leon said...

Pam,

Hitler claimed he was doing great things. Rasputin thought his actions were great.

Sauron and Saruman said they wanted to build great armies and rule great lands.

I'm sure your seeds would be great too.

Jono said...

haha...you go Leon.

Now lets see you quote Archimedes and Aristotle.

Hit me baby one more time!

supersara said...

eh leon. you like got something against pam is it.

call yourself a gentlemen, leave her alone lah.

i <3 pammie. banyak banyak k? =)

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Jo-no
– Heh. Blame not those dimples.


ATTN: ming
– Yeah, it is! It's lovely is it not? I am glad it's a nice environment. I'll be posting up some other pics soon. Was supposed to post before bedtime but I'm really too tired to do much of anything already.

Saw your post. Uh... Thank you? You're sick la babe. The CAT was supposed to die. Not the rat. Tsk tsk.


ATTN: zecount
– HAHA. That's cos you've never seen it. Who knows, you may end up finding it endearing if you found it on your mate. Haha. Never say never.


ATTN: Leon
– Why do you always have to be such a killjoy? Stop stealing my thunder with big, famous and popularized names, okayyyy. Stick to just Pam when you say nice things and you can't go wrong. And yes. My seeds WILL be Great. I'll try to get them to spare your tiny army but no guarantees okay. *snicker*

Can you quote Asterix, too while you're at it?


ATTN: supersara
– Aww, thanks for protecting me from the wild boars, babe. Me hearts you, too. Pasti pasti manyak manyak.

Leon said...

*sigh*

Anonymous said...

*shivering all over with chills that seem to come from everyone*
It may be autumn here but thats not due to the weather

Anonymous said...

correction ..its everywhere not everyone ...that just sounds wrong

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Leon
– No Asterix?


ATTN: Zecount
– Nyek nyek. Sket leh.

Anonymous said...

sket?? more like ....geli .. plz dun make me lose my breakfast N lunch ...mercy

Pam Song said...

Help you save money ma. And wei, it's the HEART that counts okay. Tsk tsk. So superficial wan you!

Leon said...

Sara,

I do have some qualities (very very few, if I might add), but chivary is definitely not one of them.

And I have never, EVER claimd otherwise.

Just so you know.

Anonymous said...

gosh...what the hell is chivary?...i can't take this anymore...if you don't know how to spell properly then don't use big words...you meant chivy...so please leon...

Anonymous said...

oh and i wanna add...you seem pretty damn annoying to me...so to say that you don't chivy...you really don't understand the meaning of that word...look it up...

Anonymous said...

and so you know leon...you can spell chivy as chevy or even chivvy...what the hell is chivary?...sounds like some kinda rashes you have...

Pam Song said...

ATTN: Leon
– Haha. Kena fire. Kena fire kau-kau. Sakit tak?


ATTN: Anonymous
– Are you gonna reveal yourself anytime soon? Or are we waiting for UFOs to land? Haha.

I think you have rage issues when it comes to Leon. I'm guessing I do, too since I almost bit his head off once. The anger seems to be a natural reaction. Haha. Do they have some kind of Rage Anonymous society for people like us? Or should we just keep firing Leon together-gether?

I'm thinking firing Leon's a lot more fun than attending some self-help meeting. What say you?

Jono said...

aha! Leon's seeds, Pam's eggs.

Settled.

Pam Song said...

One word: Y.U.C.K.

Jono said...

Anonymous,

Are you Leon's ex ? Or the mother of his girlfriend ? Or is there unresolved sexual tension between the two of you? Pam better stay out. Theres some,correct me if I'm wrong, chivvying going on....

Jono said...

Pam.

Y.U.C.K ?

Yes, U Clever Kid .

Thanks for playing.

Anonymous said...

i don't know what to say about you jo-no...either you're dumb or you're retarded...whichever is worse...because does it look like me and leon have unresolved sexual tension?....please don't try too hard to be funny or cool....

Jono said...

Anonymous... you're no fun la !

Im just a kid! And life is a nightmare!

Comon... show yourself. Then we can do some direct bashing.

Anonymous said...

Hoi.....only I get to be anonymous here! Get your sour ass away punk!theres only place for one miserable bastard.

Pam Song said...

Oookay then. I so don't know what's happening here anymore. There are TWO anonymous commentors now!?

Jono said...

Two miserable ones to be exact.

One seems to hate Leon. One seems to love to hate.

Pam Song said...

You mean one seems to hate Leon AND you. Haha. And yes. The other seems to love to hate. Good observation there.

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