Saturday, January 26, 2013

2 Months Into Motherhood

My baby turned 2 months old yesterday. Well... two months down the road, I can't yet say that I've gotten the hang of this motherhood thing. In fact, if I'm being honest with myself, I'd say I'm only just getting by. The biggest culprit?

Sleep depravation.

Did you know that mothers, like, hardly ever sleep??? At least not for more than 2 hours at a stretch?! Not cos they don't want to, I assure you. Oh no... But it's cos their babies and their feeding schedules don't allow them the luxury to.

Take my baby for example: He nurses every one to three hours, for about an hour at a time, both, day and night. Round. The. Clock. -_- And it's not like he drifts off to dreamland like he should immediately after. No, this boy wants to suckle some more! And then some more. -_-'''

O-b-v-i-o-u-s-l-y, he can't have his way. I can't allow him to. I need my sanity. My space. (And my nipples, for that matter.) So, no. No suckling forever, buddy boy. Drink your fill and call it a day, please. This momma needs a break from nursing, too! And her sleep.

Thing is, I always thought I'd be able to handle the lack of sleep, you know. What?? I have a career in Advertising leh. And I was with MCKL for a good number of years. There, you go home at 9PM and you get asked, "Wah!! Half day ahhh???" Haha. So night time feeds? Aiya, wet wet water la...

But I forgot one crucial difference.

It didn't occur to me that motherhood doesn't come with Saturdays and Sundays off for me to recharge after a brutal 5 days of hard work, fueled only by 2-hour nights. Instead, it's a train wreck of endless days and sleepless nights, one tiring, zoned out, grossly overworked week after another, month after month. :-/

Don't get me wrong though. I still love babies. And I love my baby more. A part of me wishes he'd remain at this adorable, cooing, drooling age and stay my little baby forever. =) But the zombified part of me just wants to ship him off to college ASAP so I can finally get a good night's rest with a solid 8-hour sleep each time the sun goes down. -_-'''


Felicia Boo said...

Sleep depravation BIG time huh? Take it no time he will sleep thru the night! Kyan managed to STTN about 5 or 6 months old. When he sleeps, you sleep too. Don't bother doing others already ya...

pamsong said...

ATTN: Felicia Boo
– Jialat lah, babe. Beh tong ahhhhh... Kiuuu miaaaaaa... T_T

Sue Baker said...

Hang in, Mom! Eventually Baby will sleep all night. In the meantime, if you can, sleep 4 cycles - not perfect, but it'll get you through. If you will allow, pump some and have someone else take a cycle so you can sleep. Hugs to you and your sweet infant. You WILL survive. - Mom to 2 'non-sleepers'

pamsong said...

ATTN: Sue Baker
– I know what you say must be true cos all experienced mommies tell me the same thing but... Gosh, that light at the end of the tunnel is difficult to see! At this point, I just can't imagine having two kids. -_-

My son has been going through some difficult days and nights. Hardly napping during the day and waking up every hour during the night with lots of crying in between. It's really taking a tol on me. I miss sleeping! LOL.

But hmmm... That pump-one-feed plan sounds really interesting. And doable. Thanks for the suggestion! I'll definitely try it one day. Just gotta find someone who's willing to take up babysitting through a feed first! Haha.

The Peanut Momster said...

Pam anak 18 months de, still wakes up sometimes sob sob. BUt not the every 2 hours kind de.

you know wot else is tough? having to lug out a big HUGE bag everytime i go kai kai with the kids.And that also macam military planning, got so many things to pre-plan and bring along. Habis if forgot to bring out wet wipes or diapers etc. Miss the days when i can just grab my phone and wallet and out the house I go! haha

pamsong said...

ATTN: The Peanut Momster
– Omgggg. How ah? My son every 1+ hour to 2 hours wake up in the night leh. I'm going crazy!

And the bag I dun mind la. If let me sleep 4 hours in a row, carry how heavy also nevermind. Hahaha. My baby bag is always packed. Anytime can grab and go.

Eh. I like your blog! Been reading and reading and reading. Haha.

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