"Just once I wish someone would look at me the way my best friends' husbands look at them. I don’t want to BE with any of them, I just want that look. Just once. And I am scared it’s never going to happen for me."
– Anonymous via Secret Project on Brandy Is Magic
Only problem is – like Mrs Anonymous Wife up there – there is now only one legal source for "that look" for me. *snorts* And since that particular source of mine is like, in a land far far away from me 5 days a week (T_T) I've pretty much been running on a dried up love tank filled with dusty old looks of yesterdays past. Boo hoo. Not very ego-boosting when you think about it, I suppose. And definitely not very healthy in the long run.
But then again, I guess it's natural to feel insecure sometimes. Even when you're married to someone who's committed his life – his all – to you for better or for worse, in good times and through bad. But still, bad hair days, pimply skin, stretch marks – whatever your pain-in-the-butt insecurity is, it's there. Gnawing at your self-worth and chipping away at your self-esteem, day in and day out. Standing in the way of you feeling appreciated, admired and adored by the people around you; that special someone included.
Sigh.
I miss "that look"; I want it back.
11 comments :
I get "that look" from Reuby whenever he comes around. Other times, I just don't notice.
ATTN: Lissa
– Awww... so nice! <3
:)
In PG, you can always get adoring looks easily... just head over to Bukit Jambul Complex on the weekends.
Lots of "international travelers" there milling about - adoring stares aplenty! :)
You would only want that look for the special person. I'm in the same boat as you babe. Linus and I are now in a LDR. *sigh....*
ATTN: Lissa
– Lucky you. =)
ATTN: infinitium
– EH! Dun be such a boy can or not? You misread "that look" already laaaa... I'm not talking about the sleezy Bukit Jambul looks okayyy. Haha. People referring to respectable, adoring looks! Ish!
ATTN: Zhen Ying
- Haih... You also, eh? Sien ah... Sien like hell. At least you got to know each other closely for a year or two before you guys go long distance. For us... I lost count of how many years already. :-/
Well, you both got to know each other for a very long time even before the relationship started. At least you kinda knew what he was and who he was as a friend.
We just started the LDR after he decided Aus is not for him. Its only be less than 3 months and I'm already sien of it. You pulak, sudah kahwin masih LDR. Dia pi mana? KL? If that's the case, then buat apa dia suruh kamu balik ke PG? ^__^"
ATTN: Zhen Ying
– Haha. Not really. We were enemies before we started dating, remember? =p
And yeah. I also sien of it. But what to do? No choice. Sigh. He's in KL. And yeah, I also dunno why he make me quit my job and come back to Penang. T_T
Come back to KL! :D
ATTN: Lissa
– Oh trust me, if I could, I would!
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