45 Realisations

Started working on this one last Tuesday night (more like Wednesday morning) but was too tired from work to complete it without worrying that I'd be waking up a few hours later with keyboard marks on my forehead and drool between the keys. Heh.


Anyways, the year's coming to an end and (An end and?! WHOA!! Beyond cool!) with work being as crazy as it was, I got to thinking about the things that matter, the things I've learned and the things I've come to realise in recent months. Here are 45 of them.

1. I've come to realise that... working is just a means to an end – I’ve gotta eat to stay alive.

2. I've come to realise that... my job is still JUST A JOB – it doesn't define me or my life.

3. I've come to realise that... I could totally give up my job if the carrot enticed me enough – someone to love, kids to care for, a house to look after and a garden to tend to. (Uhh, wait… forget I said anything about that garden.)

4. I've come to realise that... staying in one place won’t get me anywhere.

5. I've come to realise that... moving is as good as any excuse to de-clutter.

6. I've come to realise that... I like moving in; I don't like moving out.

7. I've come to realise that... slow drives clear messed-up heads.

8. I've come to realise that... the people I can see myself entrusting my car to, they’re the ones I really trust.

9. I've come to realise that... those who’ll reach out to catch you when you fall, they’re the ones you can depend and rely on.

10. I've come to realise that... letting go and falling is impossible without faith, trust and a sense of security.

11. I've come to realise that... family are the only ones you can really count on.

12. I've come to realise that... some friends are worth keeping, some friends are not.

13. I've come to realise that... those who are able to love and accept you without understanding or reason, they're the one's who really care.

14. I've come to realise that... being the exact same person you were before and not losing yourself to Work, Life and Time, could be a good thing.

15. I've come to realise that... being on Facebook is pretty necessary if you wanna stay in the loop of things.

16. I've come to realise that... my blog's been pretty deprived of my attention of late – bad blogger.

17. I've come to realise that... I'm so comfortable with Gtalk I may not go back to MSN at all.

18. I've come to realise that... I’ve started not to take plastic bags if I don’t really need one.

19. I've come to realise that... I now wear more dresses and skirts than I used to.

20. I've come to realise that... putting in the effort to dress up makes a difference.

21. I've come to realise that... 2009 is slipping through my fingers and I'm not sure if I'm ready to let go.

22. I've come to realise that... you can buy Time but Time doesn’t bring eventual success or guarantee change.

23. I've come to realise that... wasting time doing things and being with people who don't make you happy, is a waste of Life.

24. I've come to realise that... growing old is bad, but growing up is good.

25. I've come to realise that... you can't say that you've grown up if you haven't matured or wised up.

26. I've come to realise that... I'm just like a baby. I get grumpy for no apparent reason if I don't get enough sleep or am facing hunger pangs.

27. I’ve come to realise that… I need someone who’ll baby me, but never treat me like a kid.

28. I've come to realise that... you don't really know someone until you've seen them at their worst.

29. I've come to realise that... if you’re with someone but aren’t even interested in seeing the worst, you’re worse off with them.

30. I've come to realise that... reality checks are necessary sometimes.

31. I've come to realise that... I miss predictability, comfortability and routine.

32. I've come to realise that... Contentment is paramount but hard to come by.

33. I've come to realise that... Expectation is evil.

34. I've come to realise that... things don't always turn out the way you want them to; and that's not necessarily a bad thing.

35. I've come to realise that... small differences could turn out to be big problems.

36. I've come to realise that... Love always puts the other first. If it doesn't, it isn't love.

37. I've come to realise that... it isn't enough that someone makes you smile. They've gotta be able to make you laugh out loud like a hyena, too.

38. I've come to realise that... nothing lasts forever... unless you want it to.

39. I've come to realise that... if you want Forever, you've gotta start walking towards it.

40. I've come to realise that... Chemistry and Attraction cannot be nurtured – they're either there or they're not.

41. I've come to realise that... clicking's the reason for sticking.

42. I've come to realise that... I need somebody who just "gets" me – no explanations required.

43. I've come to realise that... I'm don't want the perfect guy; I just need the perfect guy for me.

44. I’ve come to realise that… some relationships seem to ‘happen’ naturally while others require double (or triple, or even quadruple) the amount of work.

45. I've come to realise that... love isn't easy. But when it's right, the pay-off is awesome.

Ok, Jasmine. You Got Me Convinced. Screwing Tradition's The Way To Go.

When my turn comes around, I'm going to want my wedding photographer to capture that special, one-time-only, shared-by-no-one-else, personal, intimate first look, too. I think it's a beautiful idea. Read the testimonial of grooms who did it here ---> The First Look: Groom's Perspective.

Cindy & Jelani via Jasmine Star.

Yesterday's A Brand New Day

Good morning, Sunday people! Today's already tomorrow's yesterday for you guys (and girls) but for me, today's still the yesterday before tomorrow. -_-' But whatever, it's a brand new day, nonetheless. =) Catch ya when daylight hits my ass. Till then, goodnight!

Dun Dun Dun Duuuunnnnnn...

Big plans for tonight. Bigger than I'd like to admit. Ugh, am so feeling the urge to swim in the opposite direction right now. But I gotta keep it real. Decision's made; can't stop now. Head above water. Head above water. Head above water. Tough, no doubt, when the current's pullin' me down. But I'm outta strength; can't tread no more. Guess that makes it time to kick up them feet, look skywards and float. See ya on the other side. If I get there.

Space Invasion

NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR: Before you claim to have been deceived by the title of this post, let me first say that it isn't about aliens, UFOs or gay astronauts. Quite the contrary, actually. If you think that outer space is the great unknown... Heh. Wait till you tread on lands I'm walking on these days. Feels just like rocket science. Totally makes understanding the workings of outer space seem like a piece of cake.

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“At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we’ve chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day - those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.”

– Meredith Grey, Grey’s Anatomy
(via Theresa Tumbles)

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It's funny how I speak of things and they happen. I mean, I'm not saying that I've got powers that bring me floating cans of Coke or have PB&J sandwiches magically appear when I'm hungry. But more like how a careless mention to Duh Roads over lunch, forgotten by mid-afternoon, suddenly breaks into reality by nightfall.

Can a single frustration-laced gripe of the present
bring forth a sudden turn of events that affects the future?

Hmmm, I don't know.

Looks like I don't know a lot of things these days. Cos I'm swimming in questions. And the answers in my head... They're more than subjective; they're evasive. Tell me... When is close too close for comfort? When is close just not nearly as close enough? And how can you tell the difference between the two?

Two Words: Look. Up.

Whatever you're doing, drop it.
The stars are out to play. =)

Open Heavens

Saw the most amazing sight while working out on the balcony today. (I don't take advantage of that area often enough, actually. Should do it more often.) Couldn't resist capturing what I saw on JPG to keep. Am sharing it with you because everybody needs a little bit of sunshine through the clouds sometimes.

Original picture.

Away with the greys!

Doctored to look surreal and less gloomy.

With the amazing rainbow I captured the other day still fresh in mind, I added some colour to the clouds for kicks in that last version. Only because as much as people need open skies, we all could do with a little bit of colour in our lives, too. =)


If you're working in Selangor, have a good 3-day weekend, guys. If you're in Wilayah, don't worry. You're only one day from the weekend. Have a good one! =)

Blogging From The Omnia 2 – FAIL!

Left the office without my trusty MBP yesterday cos it was already late and I kinda knew that bringing it home would either (1) be pointless cos I'd be hitting the sack in minutes, or (2) make me want to stay up and do nonsense online then face sleep deprivation today.

I should have just followed my heart
and not listened to my logic.

Why?

Cos I ended up blogging anyways.
From the Omnia 2.

(I'm sorry, Sleep. I. Have. Zero. Self. Control. -_-)

So I made it home safely, washed off the day's stress in the shower, then suddenly felt the urge to bid you guys goodnight. (See? You're always on my mind. Say, "Awww.") Crawled into bed, got the Omnia 2 connected via WiFi and started to write. Bad move. That was the beginning of pain lah, I tell you.


Three times, my post went missing. Not once, not twice, but THREE FRIGGIN' TIMES!!! Wth!? It ain't easy publishing from a teeny-tiny touchscreen QWERTY, okay! Especially not when you're lying down in bed feeling half dead from a punishing day. RAWR!

Anyways, here's the result I discovered this morning
after all the effort I put myself through before bed last night:

Click here to jump to post (more like post title). -_-'

Kanasai, just kill me lah.
Got title but still no post?!

T_T

Waste my time.