By doing the math (and giving myself unnecessary
uncontrollable panic attacks while I'm at it -_-).
uncontrollable panic attacks while I'm at it -_-).
PLACE OF WORK: + Copywriter - McCann Erickson
HOLIDAY DESTINATION: - Macau + Taipei
COMPANY ON VACATION: - Boyfriend + Family
ACTIVITY: + Vacation - Dance
EVENT ATTENDING: + Company Trip - Emerge '08
PERCEPTION/WORLDVIEW: + Meaning + Thoughts
ME: + Heart + Mind
*sigh*
Change so doesn't fly with me.
*sighs again*
Change so doesn't fly with me.
*sighs again*
We're barely seven months into 2008 and I've already hit exceeded my bad luck quota for the year. On a whole, it's just not been a very good year for me lah, you know? Seriously damn suey after Chinese New Year '08 came along and rolled by – oblivious to the fact that it messed up my life's default setting of 0k-ok feng shui as it did.
Since then – March, April, May, June, July – every following month has just been a series of non-stop, never-ending mental, emotional and psychological rollercoaster rides for me. And the number of things I've had to deal with in the timeframe I was served has got me all tired out. I've reached my limit. I'm drained. Empty. (Hence the emo-ness of late, I suppose. Doesn't help that I'm PMS-ing, too. -_-)
Sometimes, I feel like reaching past my ribcage and saving my heart from the confines of my chest. In and out. Quick and painless. Ithink hope. Whatever the case, I'll bet it'd hurt a lot less than when it's forced to beat in rhythms that are out of sync with the rest of me. I.e. my brain. Then, I start feeling like my brains need recuing, too! And it's at this point that I see myself freeing my brains from the inside of my skull. With an ice-cream scoop. A nice, shiny, metal, vanilla-ice-cream-covered ice-cream scoop.
Since then – March, April, May, June, July – every following month has just been a series of non-stop, never-ending mental, emotional and psychological rollercoaster rides for me. And the number of things I've had to deal with in the timeframe I was served has got me all tired out. I've reached my limit. I'm drained. Empty. (Hence the emo-ness of late, I suppose. Doesn't help that I'm PMS-ing, too. -_-)
Sometimes, I feel like reaching past my ribcage and saving my heart from the confines of my chest. In and out. Quick and painless. I
*blink blink*
I'm sick, aren't I?
*sigh*
I'm sick, aren't I?
*sigh*
I blame Change (and those blasted women hormones) for this wonky mood I've been in and out of the last couple of weeks. It's at times like these that I wish I could just up and run away. Forget everything. Leave it all behind. Escape to a foreign land. Or a deserted mountain top. And then stay put while I wait out the swings. Sigh. If I could, I would. And without a second thought or a glance backwards, too.
But I can't. Because there's nowhere to go.
36 comments :
You could, you would, but you shouldn't...
LOL what's with the maths??
Btw, I believe luck will change for u.. ppl always say, when there's much bad luck, great luck will come after that..
hmm.. PMS so long wan ar? couple of weeks?? OMG
Aww. What you really need is a good lift me up. Make time for the things you love :)
Focus on the good things of life and push the bad ones away. Life is short. Its tough but living in a world of unhappiness is even tougher.
Pamper yourself once in a while :)
Oooh dear you poor thing :( This year's been pretty bad for many people i know, me included. But one can only hope for the best, and good luck's prolly just round the corner ;) Cheer up! :D
Somebody going places again....Have a great vacation lor! Ease your mind....=)
lee merican?...hmmm.....i think have a friend panggil lee merican, actually just an acquaintance lar... why??
ATTN: Jeffro
– Yeah. The math sucks, right? Haha. Now you know how sucky my life is at the mo. I sure hope things will turn around soon. I can't take this much longer.
And PMS is weird lah. Sometimes suka suka wan.
ATTN: choco
– I really wish I had time to just do the things I love. Unfortunately, I can't. =(
"Life is short. Its tough but living in a world of unhappiness is even tougher."
I totally agree with this. Too bad it isn't so easy.
ATTN: SY
– Maybe I've just been looking around the wrong corners. -_-
ATTN: Adrian Lim
– Not so soon lah. Long time summore. How have to suffer and tahan. *sweat*
ATTN: sheon
– The dude should be my age if he's the same Lee Merican. And... no reason wan lah. Haha. Just happened to speak to a friend and his name came up. He used to be in my primary school. Made all the girl's hearts melt. Damn lengchai. (That time lah. =p) So now just wondering what happened to the dude. Heard he went down to KL.
Come give me your time of birth so that I can calculate your Bazi for you.
hmm.... every bad luck will end and when that happens, good luck will come by!
=)
No, dont keep track of the numbers of bad luck incidents or events. Juz remember the lessons that can be learnt, n that's all.
If u do wanna kept track of numbers then go ahead, but treat it like an exercise regiment, a strength conditioning, this year u can absorb 5, next year u can absorb 8. Try. Its called Resilience, takes awhile to find it. Keep ya body healthy, da mind will be as well, do some exercise la, like joggin or washing laundry with bare hands, dont say no time when u have de time to blog. Da vacation wif ya bf & family will do u wonders. N what is all that +-???
Yea, saving the heart from the constricting chest, its like some snake is squeezin da life outta u. Had that in April too, seems a long time ago looking back now, thanks to some "How to move forward..." and "How to forget..." articles.
Weather that change? SOS your love ones, family n frens to contribute. U got so many readers rooting for u so dont disappoint them la.
*awwwh* that bad meh? And I tot mine was bad.. Hmm.. Chill a bit la..
U should take a few hours off, go to some hill, and SOL! (scream out loud)
just like in those HK/English drama series
i'm feeling identical to what u r feeling.. sighzz.. minus the PMS la.. XD
ATTN: Simon Seow
– Chei! Forget it.
ATTM: cherry
– Haha. I sure hope so! I'm waiting for it already. =)
ATTN: Chris
– I don't intentionally keep track of the bad stuff but sometimes, on bad days, those memories come flooding back.
Wah! Wash clothes by hand instead of blog??? Siao ah?
Yeah, I'm going for vacation(s) soon. Planning is in the works. Can't wait to release tension and breathe different air. That's one change I wouldn't mind.
And that +/-? Hahahaha. Got meaning wan lah. Go figure. =p
You're right. I feel... like I can't breathe. Suffocated. Strangled. Constricted.
"U got so many readers rooting for u so dont disappoint them la."
Wah! Wanna emo also stress man. Haha. Terrible lah you! Where can put me on this type of guilt trip wan???
ATTN: Jeffro
– I always SOL from my company balcony. =p
ATTN: RealGunners
– Haha. Then you're only halfway there. Haha. The PMS thingy is the final kick. That last shot that brings you down and promises a hangover. Haha.
Maybe its better not thinking of an escape route. Rather then doing that, why not just face it and let god and those close to you guide you through it :P
By the way, when you SOL at the company's balcony, don't any of your collegue rush to see what happened? lol
LOL! serious? No one complain ar?
ATTN: Chee Hoe
– I'm an escapist lah. I'd rather not stay and fight. Unless it really means something to me lah. Haha. I'm chicken shit. =p Rather not ruffle feathers.
My colleagues? Please lah. Got ppl jump also they dunno man. Haha. All in their own worlds wan.
ATTN: Jeffro
– Haha. Nope. Another colleague does it, too. With me. =p
Chris said "U got so many readers rooting for u so dont disappoint them la."
Tinki said Wah! Wanna emo also stress man. Haha. Terrible lah you! Where can put me on this type of guilt trip wan???
Guilt trip? Heh, that's juz a small sample of a "u r guilty as charged" taunts coming at ya if u dont get out of emo-ness.
Hangon, its abit noisy outside, there're some bunch of dumbasses chanting, "Tinki, Tinki". Some sort of mass rally gathering. Tinkidicts? ..addicts
Jeeepers, these ppl are so free, they should trying washing their clothes wif bare hands or get some exercise, heh!
LOL! So nice? I wish i could do that too.. it'd be so cool!
i dunno if this is the same lee merican that we know. yeah...he's damn leng zhai. the last time i saw him...he's dating a super damn kao lat lenglui.......her father is the chairman of one damn big corporation.
ATTN: Chris
– But me likes to emo! Haha. And the REAL Tinkidicts would be accepting when it comes to ANY type of post I publish!
YEN NA DEI???
ATTN: Jeffro
– Go do lah! It's quite fun, actually. Haha. Like so hai but... fun. =p
ATTN: sheon
– Ooo. Sounds like the kind of person he'd date lah. His family quite pangkat wan, if I'm not mistaken. Anyway, you got picha ah? I think I can imagine how he'd look like when he's grown up.
nah..dun have his pic..like i said.. he's just an acquaintance. but i remember him to be from a prominent family. he drives a bmw. but the impression he gave me was pretty down to earth lar. ..hahaha....lee and my fren (oh, and lee's gf too!) are from the league of the obscenely wealthy. i cant emphasize more on how stunningly hot her gf is....hahahaha.....
the lee i know is now in australia. yeah...he's about your age....slim, above average height, and quite fair...
LOL.. I did that at home.. Got pillow fight.. Neighbours thought I crazy ady, they came and ask am i ok.. =.="
ATTN: sheon
– Eh, the more you talk about it the more I think it's really him lah. He quite rich wan. And he was pretty fair. And got a bit of brown in his hair wan. Looks a bit campur. Working in Aus issit?
ATTN: Jeffro
– HAHAHAHA. I miss pillow fights. Good times, good times. =(
All those things i said was juz to psycho (influence) u outta it. Next time next tactic.
But anyhow, what's Yen Na Dei? Tamil?
=.=" unfortunately I could get hold of the pillow.. i lost miserably.. >.<
ATTN: Chris
– Pfft. That tactic doesn't seem to work, right? Haha. And you dunno what's yen na dei!? Too much. Go ask your Indian friends and enlighten yourself can or not? Why so sesat wan??? Must be less katak ok? Read more Tinki Talks. =p
ATTN: Jeffro
– Could or could NOT get hold of the pillow? Haha.
eh.. Where'd you find "NOT"? I tot it got lost sumwer ady.. Oh tq tq.. ^_^
ATTN: Jeffro
– Haha. Cacat.
LOL.. i not cacat la.. I Special+unique..
Someday the tactic will juz hit u and u dont know wat happened, i have very good manipulative/persuasive powers, (sinister laugh) HAHAHA, bow to me. But for now, back to the drawin board.
Wei!, What's that word, Yen Na Dei ==Nabeh? R u calling me by some vulgar profanity. And... why u! call me a katak, now its your turn to want to die AH!!! And kataks dont read, so how to read more Tinki Farts if u call me a katak! Smells someone farting after having some beans.
ATTN: Jeffro
– Haha. That's what you want to believe. =p
ATTN: Chris
– Bow to you? Again? Cramp lah. Dun want.
HAHAHA. And you really dunno what Yen Na Dei is?! Really lor. Super katak already. Haha. Don't you have any Indian friends? Ask them lah!
And Tinki farts in private. You guys would never have the honour of smelling it.
Huh? But u never bow to me b4, muz be in yours dream!
Here, dont have many Indians la, gotta ask me ex-colleague then. Haiyah u ah, I'll find out myself.
WHAT??? SO NOW I AM SUPER KATAK!!!??? U r terrible, i hate u!
At least Super Katak is cooler than a normal katak.
ATTN: Chris
– Haha. I bow a few times here on Tinki Talks di. Maybe it was to Andrew. Forgot already also to who. Haha.
And ya lah! Put in some effort can or not? Go ask around for your own definition. Haha. You think what? Nothing in life is free okayyy. =p
And you PREFER to be Super Katak?! -_- I got nothing to say. Congratulations on being Super Katak. Cheers. You rock. Uh, I mean crock. Oh, sorry. I meant croak.
Tinki,
I hate u more now than juz now. Ribbit! This means WAR!!!
ATTN: Chris
– Ah, but this is but a battle! The war still lies ahead. Dormant. But ready to pounce in an instant.
Yea,
ok battle first ha, buildup to War comes later ok, coz me got a small matter of an exam on saturday.
Ermm, u need pest control? With this newly given label u gave me fully reluctantly, i can help rid those insects.
Chris is just being a sport n suffer for once on Tinki-land after making others da butt of jokes. A taste of me own medicine, just today ok.
LOL.. Chris got pwned! haha..
Super Katak la.. ROFL
Eww dunid the details on Tinki Farts..
haha, people say believe in what you think is true.. Am i right? It's true then.. ^_^
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